Regarding Hitler and his dispensation to hell. Yes, this is going to be one of my informative but definitely increasingly irate posts.
I cannot believe that I have to explain this to people (how many times have I said and thought that sentiment) but it is obvious that misunderstanding only increases over time rather than clarity and sane reasoning with understanding of God’s will prevail.
Hitler was a bad man. Hitler is dead. Hitler is in hell.
OK? Is that simple enough for you? Actually, I’ve come to observe through my study of the cultists and the secular society that those statements are not enough for modern “magical thinking” pea brains to understand. Part of me is sympathetic in understanding one aspect of the confusion, and that is that I realize that because of the enormity of the Holocaust, it is difficult to grasp on a spiritual level. So I’m not mocking or discouraging talk about how the Holocaust essentially sealed Hitler’s doom and Hitler as an incredible study in evil. But notice what I said: the Holocaust sealed his doom. Yes, you read correctly that he had already merited hell before the Holocaust. Hitler's not still "hanging around." This is what it is important for you all to understand if you have ANY hope of sanity and of saving your own souls not only that Hitler has long ago gotten his final judgment and doom, but also exactly why and when he triggered this doom. In other words, what does God judge in someone like Hitler?
Here it is in summary:
Anyone who knows God exists, and defies him, his commandments and laws, AND leads others away from their belief in God merits and will find themselves in hell. That alone is quite enough.
This, incidentally, is why Henry VIII, jolly old guy as he was, "merits" hell. I’m not saying he is there or not because only God will say that. I do speak on authority from the Holy Spirit about Hitler today, though, because of the gravity of human error and warped discussion that affects salvation of people alive today.
However, I mention Henry VIII to reiterate two points: 1. he meets the "he is dead" judgment decision point and 2. that he "merits" hell (he knew God existed, he defied him and he lead others away from the faith).
Interestingly I do not mean Henry VIII’s defiance of Rome and Papal authority, wrong as that was. I mean, quite simply, the destruction of the monasteries and places of worship, and the outright killing of priests, friars and other of the faithful. THAT is what "merits" Henry VIII hell (and let me repeat, God has rendered judgment on him at his death; there is no stupid or intelligent reincarnation at all, whatsoever).
So this is what you must understand about Hitler. Hitler knew that God exists not only because of his exposure to the faith as a child but because he had the nerve, even after rejecting God and the institutional church, to invoke God’s name and intentions on occasion. What more proof does anyone need of a person who KNOWS God exists because even as he defies him he invokes him claiming, for example, that God has a purpose for him?? This observation ought to make all of YOU think long and hard. Hitler is no different than someone who has been raised or otherwise exposed to the faith and the reality of God (who can miss it in this day and age, unless one is raised in a basement as a prisoner) who then denies God as God has chosen to present himself and yet invoke something about God when it suits him or her to do so. So that is the first of the dooming criteria for hell. He was raised to know and believe in God, he rejected and defied God, yet he also invoked God on occasion for his evil purposes. (Kind of like atheists who make money off of God, but that is another story!)
So knowing that God exists, rejecting him, and yet invoking some of his power and authority as your own are the two things that put a person on a certain track to hell. That is violation of the first Two Commandments, and there is nothing more fundamentally dangerous than that to do. However, when you set a public example for your manipulative disbelief/belief then you compound it enormously because now you lead others to break the first Two Commandments. Hitler closed down religious institutions, persecuted not only priests and other consecrated religious but also the faithful themselves. He imposed a pagan state cult on the people and children were raised in this cult. If Hitler had stopped “there” and had done “nothing else,” including the Holocaust, he would have nonetheless without question been put into hell at his death.
I know how humans think, and that is not a joyful capability, believe me. So I know that some people are feeling actually a disappointment reading this, because they feel like I am implying that committing the Holocaust was somehow “optional” and "additonal" to Hitler’s already being on the evil path to damnation, not the pivotal reason. But yes, that is correct, and as hard to understand as that is, you should upon contemplation have greater faith and understanding of God, not lesser. I know this is confusing so let me be plainer. Hitler already was headed to hell even before he executed the entire Holocaust due to his actions prior.
Suppose we could rewrite history, as I outlined above, where Hitler “only” knew of God, denied him, and then imposed the cult belief, suppressing all religions, and killed the rabbis, burned the synagogues, but let the Jews live under the pagan German government. Aren’t you glad and understanding of God’s justice to know that “that alone” would have merited Hitler’s eternal damnation in hell? To put it more plainly, if Hitler had taken the ability to practice the Jewish faith away from the people under his control, but let the Jews live, he would have already merited hell, for certain.
Millions of people “did not have to die” in order to assure today’s public consciousness that Hitler merited, and got, hell. Jesus and ALL of the prophets, both in the Old Testament and New, plus the Qur’an reiterate that denial of God when one has the opportunity to know of his reality AND leading others from the faith, especially if holy and pious leaders are slain, are anathema, abomination and most certainly the direct route to hell.
This understanding, which is totally accurate and crystal clear, ought to make cult and secular leaders very nervous today. You don’t need “a Holocaust” to virtually guarantee yourself hell if you do the things that I have outlined above, either by the gun and sword OR BY THE PEN OR COMPUTER.
So why did Hitler survive so long, and why were so many people killed?
God in his mercy does not oversee human events that they do to each other with the intention of weeding out bad people by smiting them “early on” in their evil career. Honestly, God might as well get rid of the entire human race, then. Why? Because if you as humans cannot recognize evil in your midst and DEAL with it promptly YOURSELVES then why are you even alive?
Look at how much argument took place among humans, and what subterfuge Roosevelt had to use, to even get people involved in hindering Hitler in the early days! Many people dragged their feet, and all governments were complicit in complacency, if nothing else. The railroad tracks to the concentration camps were not bombed, which would have greatly hindered the Holocaust. Refugees were turned away. Those people, who did help surreptitiously, such as the Pope, are vilified by spineless publicity seekers today who only seek to second hand guess what they themselves would have pissed in their own pants if they had to defy Hitler as real people did everyday.
The Americans eventually had to pull all the weight on a two front war. If humans cannot make intelligent and merciful decisions about how to deal with a God denying mass murderer in their midst, how can you say you are entitled to life or existence at all? So God does not “weed out” the “bad guys” for you, because that is life by definition, learning how to live it and abide in God’s commandments, and dealing with those who don’t and who murder others.
The Holocaust happened simply because it became the measure of how far humanity’s indifference and outright inhumanity will extend. It’s like the levels of the ocean rising when icebergs melt (to use an example not because it is prophecy but because it is a popular topic). The ocean would rise only so far as the volume of melting ice will allow it to, because once the ice is completely melted there is no more frozen water to add to the ocean and thus it stops rising. That is the Holocaust, where it simply was a matter of “how much is too much” for humanity’s own consciousness and ability to act in defense of both the neighbor and the innocent stranger in another country.
So God certainly wasn’t “sitting out there” on a cloud “allowing the Holocaust” to happen. He was watching with dismay and grief, but in his infinite knowledge and wisdom, no surprise, how far humans will let the ocean of an evil rise before they stop it.
Reading some mystical significance into the predominance of Jews in the Holocaust is wrong, at least from God’s point of view. Killing ANYONE is wrong, and certainly for their faith, ANY faith in God that is persecuted is martyrdom, and there are not either bonus points, or demerits, if one is Jewish and a martyr.
It is outrageous how motives have been impugned to God regarding the Jewish component of the Holocaust. That is like saying he “chose” ice to melt in global warming. I mean, duh? What would melt beside ice when the evil of man, to use this natural analogy, caused global warming? So when a pagan state is imposed the pious are killed and melted, regardless of their faith, Jewish or not. Humans use it as an excuse to seize properties, try to find a way to rationalize the killing of Jews and so forth, but that is not it, in the bottom line. The bottom line is that Jews, for the most part, were a community that would have resisted a pagan government that destroyed their ability to practice their faith, destroyed their synagogues and killed their rabbis.
I rest my case and explanation with the obvious example, which is Rwanda. In a matter of DAYS hundreds of thousands were hacked to pieces and no one did anything. The USA could have flown Marines into Rwanda and shot dead the leaders of the mobs and put an end to that massacre in a New York minute.
Why did that “Holocaust” happen if oh so wise humans have “learned their lesson” from the Holocaust itself? Who cared about Rwanda? Apparently years later movie makers did, but not so much when it happened. Humans STILL need to learn how to, um, you know, identify God defying people who slaughter their own people and stop it on the spot, whether “your ox is being gored” or not. (In other words, even if there is not a “national interest.”) Hell, I think the Israeli army should have flown in and shot a few of the leaders of the Rwandan massacre, and said “Never again” on the behalf of a helpless populace humanity who did not share their skin color, their origins or their faith, nor had a national interest.
This, by the way, is one of the things I will always be interested in asking Bill Clinton, former USA President, about. The first DAY it was happening I was raging at the TV in my mind thinking “Do something; send in the marines, you foolish idiots!”
And where do you think the Rwandan who killed “only one” person versus the one who killed hundreds, or thousands at his or her behest will go? It’s hell regardless if it was one person or many.
So yes, keep discussing the moralities of what happened during the reign of Hitler, because obviously it is a deep wound in humanity that is not well understood. But please stop with the stupid “Hitler is reincarnated” or “Hitler had a special purpose from God” crap. Thinking like that keeps blots in human viability and further existence like Cambodia under Pol Pot, Rwanda and other genocidal pits of human’s own making going and going with no increase in comprehension.
The only “special purpose” anyone and everyone, including Hitler, had or has is to repent, return to God and make amends, and that door is open only when one is alive, and before God hardens his heart and removes the opportunities for repentance.
Hitler, like all humans, could have repented and had a SINCERE and TOTAL conversion up until the end of his last hour of life.
In his lifelong evil and madness, he probably confused the promptings of the Holy Spirit, who speaks to all, urging them to repent and convert as proof of “his special purpose.” People like him feel a touch of the numinous from God seeking their return to good ways and instead impugn their own "psychic" powers to that touch.
This is why there is an institutional church, by the way, so people don’t run around “hearing their own personal revelation” and having a terrible distortion as Hitler did, and as SO MANY do today. People have enough trouble with “hearing voices” that come from drug abuse or mental disorder that they don’t need equally psycho people interpreting “purpose from God” on top of their delusion.
It’s sure hot and unpleasant, more than you can imagine, in hell. Pray, repent and convert before you join the many others who have found out with no chance out because they threw away and flaunted God to his face. The reason I am so mad is that I know darn well that some people manipulate Hitler "study" in occult ways to either claim he is reincarnated or to mislead Jews regarding why "God let it happen." I hope that what I wrote above, extremely irate as it is, because I am so sick of the wasted time and souls, is helpful.
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Part Six: How I tried to handle the astrologers
The last of the things I had discovered during my time observing the actions and writings of the RAP group, combined with my charism of hearing much of what is said, informed me of a really sad and destructive belief and desire of these cultists, one that is responsible for much of the trouble in the world today. That is that they have a desire to see me die.
Because some of them have extensions of normal human capabilities of an extrasensory kind, they have interpreted having foreknowledge of a person’s death as being a power that they actually possess. In other words, they think they can predict when someone will die simply because they have had those ESP forebodings that many have had throughout human history. So they’ve actually codified this erstwhile capability into a hard and fast component of their psychotic belief system and have accounted for it with sickening RAP explanations.
For example, many of the key members of the RAP group are obsessed with Poe. Lots of fey artiste types have been obsessed with Poe and his death. But the RAP group is different. They are not only obsessed with Poe’s life and death, but they 1) believe in his reincarnation and 2) obsess with the rumor that he fucked the dead body of his cousin who was his underage bride. I’m sorry I have to be so blunt, but trust me, the thoughts they have are even more blunt and worse than my adult language here in the blog.
So these people, some of whom have genuine normal ESP powers, spend a lot of their time glorifying dead depressive poets who have sex with underage girl corpses.
They then abuse drugs and alcohol to “dull the pain” of their being “doomed” to “such sad reincarnations” and have even more psychotic beliefs and imaginings.
They then draft people, like me, to play a role in their sick satanic (actually, real Satan is even disgusted with this), so I should say diabolical sadomasochistic delusions and imagine that other people have to be one of the participants. Yep, you guessed it.
I have “felt them” “try out” on me all sorts of depressive and psychotic identities, including saints, Greek pantheon members, demons, Titanic bimbo, and under age fucker or fuckee, both male and female. Not only do they try out these identities but they make these things to be self fulfilling prophecies, if not in reality then mentally. Hence I’ve been abused, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but also this garbage directed at me has mentally and through the media spewed out all over the world. This is one reason why you see such enormous violent psychotic depressive depravity in the world, especially directed at our precious children. What doesn’t “stick to me” is spewed out all over the world, especially as they codify these sickening thoughts into movies, TV series, video games and porn.
I wondered, some years ago, why the Lord was smiting some people that I’d read about in the newspaper or on the Internet. Over the years, especially the past twenty years, God has been doing some smiting. His smiting especially picked up since I was assaulted in surgery in the mid 1990’s. Since I did not in day to day life know most of these people, I had no way, or interest in, questioning God’s selective smiting. I trust with my whole heart and soul and being in the will of the great and all powerful God, especially as I am the “someone” who can witness to all that he has achieved, and all that he wills. I had my own hopes and ministry, which has been permanently frozen on hold by sinful and profane humans, to focus on, so I observe how mighty God is in his wisdom, but had no curiosity or questioning as to his reasons. Like I explained, I am sanguine.
But it has without my being curious, but because I know God so well, all become terribly clear. Readers, I am sure you know why certain people have been smited, and continue to be on a daily basis. Some are big wheels, some are cogs, and some are simply greedy or deluded enablers. But they have put their minds and hearts where they should not have had, they have put their eyes and their hands where they should not have had, and they have given and taken money and wealth where they should not have had. They have robbed children of their childhood and they have robbed the innocent of their peace of mind. I am no ghoul: they are. They have defied God and spit in his face, and taken money from the widow and orphan and go on “adventure” vacations and call themselves movers and shakers and artists. And so some years ago I went from being observant of the smiting but not knowing why (nor questioning God nor trying to research the reasons, since why do that as God has it covered?) to being fully aware of why many people have been and will be smitted.
In 2003 and warned about this on the RAP message board. I decided to partake in a fake scenario that had been posed to me in order to be positively subversive and also to warn people who were the poseurs that God does and will smite those who wish evil on me and mine. One of my dearest Internet “friends” said “he” was “afraid” of one of the “female” message board posters, that she was “sending” him, I forget how he put it, but like if not cursing then something like vibes for bad things to happen to him. Hmm. Remember, I decide to take part in their chosen milieu, but I have to always be truthful. So I take on a new message board name, just for that purpose, that includes the word “angel” in it. That was a title of my authority. I then post so that all can see a warning that those who wish dire things on someone else, especially my “friend” will find that it rebounds on them. To my almost droll amusement they acted out a whole kabuki theater production over the next few months of how this “female poster” was rumored to be dead, but wasn’t. I realized over a period of time that the female poster is supposed to have been me, since they were “testing” if I had some sort of demonic or other “ill wishing” persona. That’s really when I washed my hands of the whole stupid business, although there was one other event that I used to make my break. But just to finish this point, I warned people using a truthful moniker to represent my authority that those who wish or benefit from ill being physically or psychically sent to someone will have it rebounded to them by God in his own time and way in a manner that they really won’t like. And boy oh boy, did the smitting ever pick up even more since my warning was ignored.
The breaking point with my attempts to salvage any souls on that message board came when one of the “older” “fans” who is an “aw shucks” kind of Southern female conveyed via a typo and /or poor phrasing a death wish to me on the message board. It really upset me, but not for the reasons that people thought, or for what I said in private to “friends.” It upset me because I recognized that this is an unending favorite game of the cultists to envision me dead. That kind of intrusive thought tormented my mother in the 1980’s, so I was quite familiar with the shenanigans, even though I know the cultists don’t realize that the Holy Spirit keeps me informed and thus I make the connections over the years in the confidential part of my mind. So it was pure despair that twenty years later, not only had that demented thinking directed toward me not diminished, but it was arrogantly presented to my face as typos and misspeaking. And so I quoted from Ecclesiastes and left the message board forever. And I’m sad , and pissed as all hell, to report that the death wish mentality directed toward me has not ceased and desisted. The same ploy was actually performed only two years ago in an actual Catholic Church! This is why I no longer even try to find a Mass to attend, because I just will not lead more into sin by being a tempting fat sitting target if I can help it. A woman “with an accent” sat behind me in rosary recital and made a “lisp” that was wishing basically “death” to the Virgin Mary, said into my ear. Honestly, I wanted to strike her down on the spot because of this profanity now taking place even in a church setting. Worse, one of the puppet priests actually alluded to “misspeaking due to an accent” from the pulpit a few days later. Folks, there are “believers” in hell too, and I don’t need to tell you that some of them are priests.
Well, I guess I’ve done enough blogging on this subject for today. So I’ll sit back here alone in my room, sip my Coca Cola and read some Internet news. Enjoy the smiting! Cheers!
Because some of them have extensions of normal human capabilities of an extrasensory kind, they have interpreted having foreknowledge of a person’s death as being a power that they actually possess. In other words, they think they can predict when someone will die simply because they have had those ESP forebodings that many have had throughout human history. So they’ve actually codified this erstwhile capability into a hard and fast component of their psychotic belief system and have accounted for it with sickening RAP explanations.
For example, many of the key members of the RAP group are obsessed with Poe. Lots of fey artiste types have been obsessed with Poe and his death. But the RAP group is different. They are not only obsessed with Poe’s life and death, but they 1) believe in his reincarnation and 2) obsess with the rumor that he fucked the dead body of his cousin who was his underage bride. I’m sorry I have to be so blunt, but trust me, the thoughts they have are even more blunt and worse than my adult language here in the blog.
So these people, some of whom have genuine normal ESP powers, spend a lot of their time glorifying dead depressive poets who have sex with underage girl corpses.
They then abuse drugs and alcohol to “dull the pain” of their being “doomed” to “such sad reincarnations” and have even more psychotic beliefs and imaginings.
They then draft people, like me, to play a role in their sick satanic (actually, real Satan is even disgusted with this), so I should say diabolical sadomasochistic delusions and imagine that other people have to be one of the participants. Yep, you guessed it.
I have “felt them” “try out” on me all sorts of depressive and psychotic identities, including saints, Greek pantheon members, demons, Titanic bimbo, and under age fucker or fuckee, both male and female. Not only do they try out these identities but they make these things to be self fulfilling prophecies, if not in reality then mentally. Hence I’ve been abused, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, but also this garbage directed at me has mentally and through the media spewed out all over the world. This is one reason why you see such enormous violent psychotic depressive depravity in the world, especially directed at our precious children. What doesn’t “stick to me” is spewed out all over the world, especially as they codify these sickening thoughts into movies, TV series, video games and porn.
I wondered, some years ago, why the Lord was smiting some people that I’d read about in the newspaper or on the Internet. Over the years, especially the past twenty years, God has been doing some smiting. His smiting especially picked up since I was assaulted in surgery in the mid 1990’s. Since I did not in day to day life know most of these people, I had no way, or interest in, questioning God’s selective smiting. I trust with my whole heart and soul and being in the will of the great and all powerful God, especially as I am the “someone” who can witness to all that he has achieved, and all that he wills. I had my own hopes and ministry, which has been permanently frozen on hold by sinful and profane humans, to focus on, so I observe how mighty God is in his wisdom, but had no curiosity or questioning as to his reasons. Like I explained, I am sanguine.
But it has without my being curious, but because I know God so well, all become terribly clear. Readers, I am sure you know why certain people have been smited, and continue to be on a daily basis. Some are big wheels, some are cogs, and some are simply greedy or deluded enablers. But they have put their minds and hearts where they should not have had, they have put their eyes and their hands where they should not have had, and they have given and taken money and wealth where they should not have had. They have robbed children of their childhood and they have robbed the innocent of their peace of mind. I am no ghoul: they are. They have defied God and spit in his face, and taken money from the widow and orphan and go on “adventure” vacations and call themselves movers and shakers and artists. And so some years ago I went from being observant of the smiting but not knowing why (nor questioning God nor trying to research the reasons, since why do that as God has it covered?) to being fully aware of why many people have been and will be smitted.
In 2003 and warned about this on the RAP message board. I decided to partake in a fake scenario that had been posed to me in order to be positively subversive and also to warn people who were the poseurs that God does and will smite those who wish evil on me and mine. One of my dearest Internet “friends” said “he” was “afraid” of one of the “female” message board posters, that she was “sending” him, I forget how he put it, but like if not cursing then something like vibes for bad things to happen to him. Hmm. Remember, I decide to take part in their chosen milieu, but I have to always be truthful. So I take on a new message board name, just for that purpose, that includes the word “angel” in it. That was a title of my authority. I then post so that all can see a warning that those who wish dire things on someone else, especially my “friend” will find that it rebounds on them. To my almost droll amusement they acted out a whole kabuki theater production over the next few months of how this “female poster” was rumored to be dead, but wasn’t. I realized over a period of time that the female poster is supposed to have been me, since they were “testing” if I had some sort of demonic or other “ill wishing” persona. That’s really when I washed my hands of the whole stupid business, although there was one other event that I used to make my break. But just to finish this point, I warned people using a truthful moniker to represent my authority that those who wish or benefit from ill being physically or psychically sent to someone will have it rebounded to them by God in his own time and way in a manner that they really won’t like. And boy oh boy, did the smitting ever pick up even more since my warning was ignored.
The breaking point with my attempts to salvage any souls on that message board came when one of the “older” “fans” who is an “aw shucks” kind of Southern female conveyed via a typo and /or poor phrasing a death wish to me on the message board. It really upset me, but not for the reasons that people thought, or for what I said in private to “friends.” It upset me because I recognized that this is an unending favorite game of the cultists to envision me dead. That kind of intrusive thought tormented my mother in the 1980’s, so I was quite familiar with the shenanigans, even though I know the cultists don’t realize that the Holy Spirit keeps me informed and thus I make the connections over the years in the confidential part of my mind. So it was pure despair that twenty years later, not only had that demented thinking directed toward me not diminished, but it was arrogantly presented to my face as typos and misspeaking. And so I quoted from Ecclesiastes and left the message board forever. And I’m sad , and pissed as all hell, to report that the death wish mentality directed toward me has not ceased and desisted. The same ploy was actually performed only two years ago in an actual Catholic Church! This is why I no longer even try to find a Mass to attend, because I just will not lead more into sin by being a tempting fat sitting target if I can help it. A woman “with an accent” sat behind me in rosary recital and made a “lisp” that was wishing basically “death” to the Virgin Mary, said into my ear. Honestly, I wanted to strike her down on the spot because of this profanity now taking place even in a church setting. Worse, one of the puppet priests actually alluded to “misspeaking due to an accent” from the pulpit a few days later. Folks, there are “believers” in hell too, and I don’t need to tell you that some of them are priests.
Well, I guess I’ve done enough blogging on this subject for today. So I’ll sit back here alone in my room, sip my Coca Cola and read some Internet news. Enjoy the smiting! Cheers!
Part Five: How I tried to handle astrologers
Over the years that I frequented the RAP message board, it went through a number of cycles and changes. They always were presented as being due to some sort of normal change, such as moving domains, new participants coming and going, or new “interests” that would spring up. But it was obvious that the puppet masters were following occult cycles and also trying to be “responsive” to world events, and, of course, to how I was reacting to them individually and as a group. It went through dry periods were very few people did much of anything. Then it had a huge burst in participation after the terrorist attack of September 11, 2001. That was presented as being “many concerned people flocking to the board seeking answers and bonding.” I saw it for what it was which was like the bees swarming around after a stick had been poked into their nest. They had been there all along, but were suddenly out in the “open” because of their startlement and confusion. There were many “new” people posting, but they were obviously poseurs. During this time I experienced some of these “new” individuals be openly hostile to me without any cause or reason. They would mask it by claiming to be overemotional about 9/11, and thus attack me when I’d post something moderating to an anti-Arab posting. It upset me enough that I actually spoke to one of my grad school professors about it. Like I said, just because I knew that deep and dark reasons existed for such behavior toward me, I still reacted as a normal human would, which is to be hurt and to look for a person to be consoling. This professor, who was also my advisor in my grad school work, was a sympathetic ear, as he could relate because of hostility toward him being gay. Later I realized that he’s in the circle, of course, of the RAP gang, but that doesn’t mean that I was willing to cut myself off from everyone, even though that’s what eventually happened, but not because I wanted it that way. I still wanted to have normal human conversations and interactions with people, even though they themselves may be partially or fully poisoned by the venom of the cultist insanity that has overtaken so many and, by their control, of virtually everyone around me, who marches to their drum and choreography.
So the cycles I observed, and are not listed in any particular order in time, but just as I recall them on refection were: very few people, very many people, people focused on astrology, people focused on world events and “venting,” people wanting relationship help, people wanting “bipolar” or other disorders help, focus on Western astrology, focus on Eastern (Indian) astrology, traditional astrology talk and “lessons,” other New Age topics such as that farce called “reiki.” There were other threads that ran throughout, which were that participants seemed “coincidentally” to be all “authors and writers.” LOL. Who would have guessed? I addressed that in one of my previous posts on this subject regarding my three readings for the “script writer.” Waves of people with clusters of birthdays would “coincidentally” clump up and pass through the board, such as Sagittarius, Capricorn and Pisces. After 9/11 there were “attempts” to bring “prayer” into the board by people who presented themselves as being mainstream church. I really did not warm to them because remember, duh, as a Catholic I know how to spot a non-Catholic Christian “mindset” that is dispensational, non-denominational or otherwise unorthodox. No matter how pious they presented themselves, I mean think about it, what were they doing there on an occult message board? Only the “rapture” gang would really find themselves attracted to the occult and still try to paint themselves as pious church goers.
These were feelers, you see, put out after 9/11 startled them, as part of gauging my reaction. And they just had not figured out that being “clear,” to use that handy $cientologist term, I just don’t take the bait because I’m not interested in anything but what I know is the truth. My only interest was to try to make friends and draw as many of them toward health, genuine humanity and genuine rational faith/reason balance as possible, within the context of their own milieu if that’s what they insisted on. I was also still holding out hope, though it had rapidly faded, that the person who was supposed to be my partner would show up. By this time I had increasingly realized, though, that he was either not showing up, was “too late,” or because humans no longer merited even my poor efforts, did not come through in the form I expected because God had had enough of the world’s crap. I had already concluded that the only male companionship I should look for is someone to, well, be companionable with as in an older couple comfort level while I privately waited for the doom that humans are clearly pulling down on their heads. For the past twenty years when the partner I knew existed did not show up, I theorized that my mission was probably lost and that I’d just have to content myself being neighborly as in sharing standing on earth with the undeserving humans while the world collapsed in its own destruction upon itself.
One thing that really made me realize this was quite likely was that a cycle of message board activity brought to the forefront more of who the RAP puppet masters clearly viewed as their “heavy intellectual and spiritual guns.” Uh oh, I thought, as I read their crap. For example, one astrologer considers himself an expert on “the galactic core.” Yep, the core of our home galaxy. Western astrologers consider the galactic core to be at 21 degrees Sagittarius. Newsletters by this guy were spooky because they were so matter of fact that there’s all sorts of spiritual significance to the center of the Milky Way galaxy. Folks, it’s space, dust and rock. It rotates. It has gas and xrays and other natural stuff. There are black holes. It’s matter and energy. Get over yourselves. But this guy had a cottage industry about the “importance of the galactic core.” Worse, he considered himself this big scholar of the “big star” of movement that Venus makes over five hundred year cycles. When I read that and how obsessed the secret RAP group is with this, I realized that they were really lost. The movement of the planets is an optical illusion due to the timing of the orbits of the planets around the sun. It doesn’t matter one hairy rat’s ass that Venus “seems” to be making a “star” shape over a period of centuries and that “good” and “bad” things seem to happen then.
Let’s get real. Just yesterday I read that in RI a 17 year old boyfriend of a young mother raped the baby while babysitting her for his girlfriend. He shoved his dick into a tiny baby’s bottom and beat her, all in the time it took the mom to step outside and visit a neighbor. You want to tell me that humans are living in “good” or “bad” times according to karma, the imaginary movements of dead and stupid piles of rocks, and your own rantings about aliens and psychic powers? I’m reading this unbelievable bull crap five years ago, while driving to my internship at a mental hospital outpatient unit and think, “How arrogant, stupid, venal, and disgusting are these mercenary overpaid thieving cultists who care only about looking like they are Mickey Mouse aka reincarnated Jesus relative while the values and stability of the world is being destroyed in front of all of our eyes.”
I’m not a movie goer because movies, in general, are just another propaganda tool by the cultists. So I have to be dragged to them (and regret it soon after) and I don’t take hints. I refused all the “men in black” hints until finally it was on TV one day and I watched it. Gosh, what a surprise. $cientology star(s) in a self aggrandizing (we in Brooklyn are keeping the world safe from bad aliens) manic depressive movie (and gosh, it’s all about how each “universe” is a marble that ugly alien kids are playing with) and bug eyed pug dogs are featured. Wow, I never could have guessed that. I hope the pug dogs don’t have to imagine someone stabbing their eyes all the time, like I had to feel in reality. It all came together, not because I give a damn about the details of the insane beliefs that these people have ruined the world with. But it gave me the “questions” to answer that everyone in their pride; hubris and arrogance have refused to ask me throughout my life to my face. So as the picture of the insanity has become clearer to me, I have been able to direct not only my writings, but my thoughts and speech toward refuting all of the errors.
It also illuminated me regarding a very strange “poem” that my ex-beau once wrote about me. It was an angry poem, because I didn’t understand his wife swapping and anything goes British ways. I had to accept it because that’s what he and his wife, now ex-wife, chose as their milieu. But I never liked it and the fact they were drunks demonstrated that there was not much pleasure in paradise there. Anyway, he once wrote a poem critical of me because I am “like a black hole sucking up everyone in a controlling way through my tendrils” while he and his ilk are just like beautiful happy floating nebulas of fluffy pink gas floating through space. Ha ha, I’m being a little nasty in my paraphrasing, but not in the part about me, which is exactly what he said. Once I saw that insane RAP psychotics think that galaxies are life forms, related to reincarnation and people on earth, that black holes are also poop holes (and so anal sex is, well, it just can’t be helped they figure) and that this popped out of the mind of one of the least literary or poetic people I ever knew, who was Church of England and not anything New Age…. I realized that the insanity is everywhere, conscious and unconscious, directed and not directed. It’s viral to the extreme and that’s not an advertising compliment. Honestly, when he gave me that “poem” around ten to fifteen years ago, I was hurt, but I figured it was the booze. But it was also, as I later realized, a chilling example how even a regular bloke is plugged into suicidal psychotic world and sanity destroying beliefs.
So far from “trying out” “showing me” different things to “break through” my “memory” and “illuminate me” as to “who I really am” my experience on that message board was that I was shown a scrapbook of the loss of humanity and sanity of large and influential puppet string pulling segment of the global human population. And that was not even the worst of it. I’ll discuss that in the next blog posting.
So the cycles I observed, and are not listed in any particular order in time, but just as I recall them on refection were: very few people, very many people, people focused on astrology, people focused on world events and “venting,” people wanting relationship help, people wanting “bipolar” or other disorders help, focus on Western astrology, focus on Eastern (Indian) astrology, traditional astrology talk and “lessons,” other New Age topics such as that farce called “reiki.” There were other threads that ran throughout, which were that participants seemed “coincidentally” to be all “authors and writers.” LOL. Who would have guessed? I addressed that in one of my previous posts on this subject regarding my three readings for the “script writer.” Waves of people with clusters of birthdays would “coincidentally” clump up and pass through the board, such as Sagittarius, Capricorn and Pisces. After 9/11 there were “attempts” to bring “prayer” into the board by people who presented themselves as being mainstream church. I really did not warm to them because remember, duh, as a Catholic I know how to spot a non-Catholic Christian “mindset” that is dispensational, non-denominational or otherwise unorthodox. No matter how pious they presented themselves, I mean think about it, what were they doing there on an occult message board? Only the “rapture” gang would really find themselves attracted to the occult and still try to paint themselves as pious church goers.
These were feelers, you see, put out after 9/11 startled them, as part of gauging my reaction. And they just had not figured out that being “clear,” to use that handy $cientologist term, I just don’t take the bait because I’m not interested in anything but what I know is the truth. My only interest was to try to make friends and draw as many of them toward health, genuine humanity and genuine rational faith/reason balance as possible, within the context of their own milieu if that’s what they insisted on. I was also still holding out hope, though it had rapidly faded, that the person who was supposed to be my partner would show up. By this time I had increasingly realized, though, that he was either not showing up, was “too late,” or because humans no longer merited even my poor efforts, did not come through in the form I expected because God had had enough of the world’s crap. I had already concluded that the only male companionship I should look for is someone to, well, be companionable with as in an older couple comfort level while I privately waited for the doom that humans are clearly pulling down on their heads. For the past twenty years when the partner I knew existed did not show up, I theorized that my mission was probably lost and that I’d just have to content myself being neighborly as in sharing standing on earth with the undeserving humans while the world collapsed in its own destruction upon itself.
One thing that really made me realize this was quite likely was that a cycle of message board activity brought to the forefront more of who the RAP puppet masters clearly viewed as their “heavy intellectual and spiritual guns.” Uh oh, I thought, as I read their crap. For example, one astrologer considers himself an expert on “the galactic core.” Yep, the core of our home galaxy. Western astrologers consider the galactic core to be at 21 degrees Sagittarius. Newsletters by this guy were spooky because they were so matter of fact that there’s all sorts of spiritual significance to the center of the Milky Way galaxy. Folks, it’s space, dust and rock. It rotates. It has gas and xrays and other natural stuff. There are black holes. It’s matter and energy. Get over yourselves. But this guy had a cottage industry about the “importance of the galactic core.” Worse, he considered himself this big scholar of the “big star” of movement that Venus makes over five hundred year cycles. When I read that and how obsessed the secret RAP group is with this, I realized that they were really lost. The movement of the planets is an optical illusion due to the timing of the orbits of the planets around the sun. It doesn’t matter one hairy rat’s ass that Venus “seems” to be making a “star” shape over a period of centuries and that “good” and “bad” things seem to happen then.
Let’s get real. Just yesterday I read that in RI a 17 year old boyfriend of a young mother raped the baby while babysitting her for his girlfriend. He shoved his dick into a tiny baby’s bottom and beat her, all in the time it took the mom to step outside and visit a neighbor. You want to tell me that humans are living in “good” or “bad” times according to karma, the imaginary movements of dead and stupid piles of rocks, and your own rantings about aliens and psychic powers? I’m reading this unbelievable bull crap five years ago, while driving to my internship at a mental hospital outpatient unit and think, “How arrogant, stupid, venal, and disgusting are these mercenary overpaid thieving cultists who care only about looking like they are Mickey Mouse aka reincarnated Jesus relative while the values and stability of the world is being destroyed in front of all of our eyes.”
I’m not a movie goer because movies, in general, are just another propaganda tool by the cultists. So I have to be dragged to them (and regret it soon after) and I don’t take hints. I refused all the “men in black” hints until finally it was on TV one day and I watched it. Gosh, what a surprise. $cientology star(s) in a self aggrandizing (we in Brooklyn are keeping the world safe from bad aliens) manic depressive movie (and gosh, it’s all about how each “universe” is a marble that ugly alien kids are playing with) and bug eyed pug dogs are featured. Wow, I never could have guessed that. I hope the pug dogs don’t have to imagine someone stabbing their eyes all the time, like I had to feel in reality. It all came together, not because I give a damn about the details of the insane beliefs that these people have ruined the world with. But it gave me the “questions” to answer that everyone in their pride; hubris and arrogance have refused to ask me throughout my life to my face. So as the picture of the insanity has become clearer to me, I have been able to direct not only my writings, but my thoughts and speech toward refuting all of the errors.
It also illuminated me regarding a very strange “poem” that my ex-beau once wrote about me. It was an angry poem, because I didn’t understand his wife swapping and anything goes British ways. I had to accept it because that’s what he and his wife, now ex-wife, chose as their milieu. But I never liked it and the fact they were drunks demonstrated that there was not much pleasure in paradise there. Anyway, he once wrote a poem critical of me because I am “like a black hole sucking up everyone in a controlling way through my tendrils” while he and his ilk are just like beautiful happy floating nebulas of fluffy pink gas floating through space. Ha ha, I’m being a little nasty in my paraphrasing, but not in the part about me, which is exactly what he said. Once I saw that insane RAP psychotics think that galaxies are life forms, related to reincarnation and people on earth, that black holes are also poop holes (and so anal sex is, well, it just can’t be helped they figure) and that this popped out of the mind of one of the least literary or poetic people I ever knew, who was Church of England and not anything New Age…. I realized that the insanity is everywhere, conscious and unconscious, directed and not directed. It’s viral to the extreme and that’s not an advertising compliment. Honestly, when he gave me that “poem” around ten to fifteen years ago, I was hurt, but I figured it was the booze. But it was also, as I later realized, a chilling example how even a regular bloke is plugged into suicidal psychotic world and sanity destroying beliefs.
So far from “trying out” “showing me” different things to “break through” my “memory” and “illuminate me” as to “who I really am” my experience on that message board was that I was shown a scrapbook of the loss of humanity and sanity of large and influential puppet string pulling segment of the global human population. And that was not even the worst of it. I’ll discuss that in the next blog posting.
Part Four: How I tried to handle astrologers
Here is more about how I tried to handle the astrologers. I’m not doing this writing in order to vent, or to embarrass anyone (although the Lord knows they should be embarrassed to the point of total shame). I’m doing it because, as Sonny and Cher sang, “The beat goes on.” While more and more people are at least beginning to question the dire error of occult beliefs, the damage and the glorification of the wrong and perverted still goes on and on. And so I hope that doing a kind of “core dump” (to use one of my ex husband and my favorite terms) on this subject that I can help those who have not completely lost themselves to the dark.
Before I relate another aspect of how I tried to handle the reincarnation-astrology-psychic cabal with friendship, charity and some positive subversion, I have to explain to you one of my charisms, given to me by the Holy Spirit. From the earliest age I can hear what people are saying and thinking. Now I don’t mean this in a “mind reading” sense, though obviously that is part of it. Rather, I am like the Holy Spirit, because I hover among humans, hearing the overall murmuring of what is going on, what is the state of their souls (don’t ask, that’s not been fun to listen to over the past forty years… the first ten years of my life the sound overall was the best it’s been, and it’s only been downhill since then, at a dire, rapid pace). So I have a constant contact throughout the world and through all people. Let’s call the triumvirate astrology group RAP for short, because I hate typing it all out each time, and it’s droll how that acronym fits them, for a number of reasons. The RAP group would not value this charism, if they had known about it, because they care only about gifts that they can use for manipulative power or money. So they’d much rather “read someone’s mind” or outright spy on their actions than respect what I do. But see, that’s another reason why I have authority and they are profane. God cares more about the state of the world’s souls than anything else, and obviously my ministry was to have been to nudge them back in the right direction, rather than where they were going. So to assume, for example, that I only cared about or was involved with local ethnic groups, for example, is a grave error. I don’t have to read in the newspaper, weep over the bad news, and “donate to good causes” to care about people in China, for example. I have always been there.
Along with this charism comes occasional overhearing of very bad thoughts by people in general and also directed at me. I’ve always heard these thoughts, but because all my authority comes from the pureness of the Holy Spirit, it is unpleasant but kept at a manageable level. Remember, I’ve described in previous blog postings that I was born with full knowledge of and authority to witness to the words and events described in both the Bible and the Qur’an. So I was able to ponder, but not dwell on, for example, the passion and suffering of Jesus Christ before I was five years old. As a result it annoys me greatly when the RAP group has sent in my direction “hints” about the suffering of JC that I’m supposed to “respond” to in some way. I ignore them. Sometimes my avoiding such input might seen “denial” or “squeamish” to them, but obviously if I already know everything there is to know about, well, God and his works, as I was born and also as soon as my human brain could articulate in words the thoughts, one could hardly say I’m either squeamish or in denial of the truth. They are the ones who are so unbelievably warped in their delusions about the “truth,” since they “believe” in the RAP principles, which are all fallacious. So people, obviously not knowing that I have a “dashboard” type of global view of all human’s souls made some really stupid assumptions about what I’m interested in, to say the least.
No one at all knew of this charism, although I inadvertently revealed it once as a child. I’ve told this story before on the blog but now you can link it into my charism for better understanding. I was doing much “work” in this regard one night while I was asleep as a young pre-school child. My mother slept in the same room as me because my father worked night shifts and would come home and sleep in the living room. I was so involved in my “work” that in my sleep I got up, walked to the corner of the bedroom and started making motions. My mother woke and extremely puzzled said, “What are you doing?” I replied, “Picking peaches.” Read about Kuan and peaches on the Internet if you need more enlightenment about my areas of interest and the nature of my work.
So with my “remaining open” to all the world’s souls and my doing my “work,” it was inevitable that I overhear some pretty nasty stuff, both in general and directed toward me. One day I was playing in my back yard on what we called the Jungle Gym (some call the swing set and monkey bars) and I heard and felt the most depraved sexual desire directed toward me by a pedophile man. The Holy Spirit always keeps me sanguine about even the most troubling thoughts and deeds of humans since, well, their depravity is hardly a surprise to anyone. But it was the first example I was given of perversion and animosity directed at me personally. By the way, years later I had genuine in person stalking and attempts to harm me, so it was part of the overall developing RAP pattern.
When I married the man who I married in order to be my bodyguard, since now you can see more clearly, even though I explained this before that I needed one, a huge set of malicious thoughts directed at me commenced and lasted for decades. There’s no nice way to put it, but I could feel people thinking about stabbing my eyes out. I don’t ask for credit or praise a lot, but I wonder how many of you could be as sanguine as I was, enduring decades of those thoughts and feelings (and accompanying genuine physical damage to my eyes). They are so intrusive, unpleasant and personal that I had to talk to someone about them, so obviously I told my husband. Now, remember, no one, including he, had any idea of who I really was (think of me as the “someone with authority to witness”). That’s why I call myself “The Someone” for short. So I presented it to him as being an example of what psychologists call “intrusive thoughts.” He was sympathetic and worked with me on normal human coping mechanisms to redirect the thoughts, which we called “the naughty thoughts” or the “bad thoughts” (just as part of that intimate vocabulary that couples have). But I knew that it was more, and that this would not be sufficient, but being in a human body I had to do something human in origin, and so I did those coping mechanisms and it helped somewhat, but as I said, it persisted for decades. Yes, I’m annoyed, pissed and furious, and so, I can assure you, is God. But I was not put here in order to send hellfire back along the channels that people used to send those thoughts in my direction. God’s got that covered, in his timetable, and in his way.
So you need to know that by the time I tried to handle the RAP group, I had many years of overhearing not so great, and in fact, depraved pagan thoughts about me, and the downfall of the health of the souls of humanity in general. Yet I persisted in trying to engage with the people who are responsible for this global damage and try to witness to them, using their own language, since they had turned away from God and the “institutional church” on their own, in droves. I’m not here to add anything new to what God has revealed and commanded. And so I’m not here to bring people back to the institutional church and to God through new revelations or doing elaborate miraculous X game style “tricks” to impress them. If people leave the institutional church and God then they deserve what will happen to them. I have to be blunt about this, just as the words of God and the Lord Jesus have been very blunt throughout the Bible, and reinforced in the holy Qur’an. So I have plainly refused to be part of the “tricks” and “dueling miracles and dogma” circus that the RAP cabal so dearly admires. It’s all false, the exhibitions and the “miracles” that they manipulate and perform. Anything real and good comes from God, not from the machinations of men or women, boys or girls. I continued to be able to function as an optimistic in nature but frozen in “waiting” witness, even as I was pummeled with sickening thoughts and bodily attacks.
Therefore, you now have a context for understanding this next part of my explanation of how I tried to handle the astrologers. I developed “close” (via the Internet) potential friendships with some of those in the message board who portrayed themselves as “seeking” “fans.” Some wanted to phone me and have phone “consultations.” Several did. And lo and behold, three of the “women” who called me, from widely separated parts of the country, had the exact same voice. I not only never let on that I noticed, but as you now understand, after decades of overhearing the insanity of humans, I wasn’t even curious as to why that was. I didn’t devote one single minute of thinking, “Hmm, are they the same person? And why would they do that?” A culture that had become depraved toward their own little children could do nothing to surprise or excite my curiosity at this point. I continue to function with all people at “face value.” If the same person wanted to pose as three different people, knock yourself out. I continued to think of them as the person that they wished to present themselves as, and this is how I remain a bastion of sanity amidst a world that has collectively lost its mind in falsehood and delusion. No one in the world has what I have. I can and do suffer and mourn what people do, but it does not warp my perceptions, since it comes from God himself to me through the Holy Spirit. I’m what the nutty and dangerous $cientologists would call a “clear,” except of course, clear is my natural condition and there are no stupid reincarnated aliens or past life memories or sprits to clear of from anyone in the first place. But like I said, I like to use the lingo in a respectful way where possible. That never had made my respectful use of the lingo an endorsement of the underlying insane beliefs and totally anti-God and immoral behavior that humans do to one another.
So you need to understand that during the years I tried to deal with the RAP group, and help them be more positive and, well, sane, within their own chosen milieu, I overheard and knew a lot more than I let on, since that’s been one of my charisms throughout this human life. They would put little doses of “hints” and their crazy lore on the message boards, thinking they were directing my “learning” and “enlightenment” about my needed “lessons” (a word I have developed such a loathing for as a result, that you cannot ever begin to understand it, except if I tell you that it’s OK with me if Satan dedicates an entire section of hell labeled “Lessons.”) But all the while I alone know the real state of human souls worldwide, and have endured knowing what is really planned, said and done, directed against me, against the Church, against the unborn babies, and against each other. So some moronic celebrities and depraved psychics masquerading behind their “Gee, golly, gosh I’m so spiritual” facades on the message board did not deceive me at all. This does not mean that I know the mechanisms (who is doing what to whom) because remember, I have a remarkable lack of concern or interest in what flavor of anti-God depravity humans are engaging themselves in. I don’t want to be “friends” with people who are totally plastic and false, and who are no longer able to have a “clear” human thought that is not entangled in a depressive bipolar relativist fantasy writer’s view of the world. I had friends that I cared about in normal human ways: whether they had a good day, how their families are doing, what restaurants they liked, what schools they attend and what subjects they love, and their hobbies. I no longer care about them because their lives are in actuality, “How much did you think you ‘knew’ about who I supposedly was, and how much did you participate in fake activities with real hurtful consequences as a result?” I don’t really care who did what to whom. God knows, God cares, and God is wrathful. All I care about is pissing away my totally wasted life and time waiting for humans, some humans at least, to decide to try to save themselves again, as their ancestors (who are not reincarnated) did, packing heaven with their reality and piety. The RAP group has, however, destroyed the personal persona that I had chosen to bring to humans, one of my charisms that I had kept protected throughout the assaults and harm. I had to send that charism back to sender, God, as it could not maintain its form and existence among falseness. That is why stalkers will notice that in the past several years I have shifted in my language from calling “us” “people” into calling you “humans.” The loving maternal charism of my being among and part of the people is gone. Remember, in the parable of the Prodigal Son. It’s not like the Prodigal son, while he was away and living a dissolute life hired people to go back to his hometown and assault and torment his mother and his father. The loving maternal charism that I had brought and kept protected was unwrapped several years ago and then promptly assaulted (again). God just will not tolerate that and so that gift and charism has been withdrawn from the table. You cannot have missed that as not only did I warn those that could hear that this would happen, but my language and discourse is clearly more of the fire and less of the water, to use a Holy Spirit analogy. You disgusting people. You think you can turn God’s gifts on and off like a switch. You think that you can parade a cute infant past me in the mall and that I will still feel the maternal charism that I kept as best I could under continual daily depraved assault, and now I’m just going to be “alright” again. We can still do a lot of good. But I will never have the maternal charism that I had brought again, because God simply will not allow it to be sullied and manipulated. All that is true simply cannot exist in a vat full of acidic untruth. Truth cannot be destroyed, but it can and does retreat to its natural home, which is heaven.
Before I relate another aspect of how I tried to handle the reincarnation-astrology-psychic cabal with friendship, charity and some positive subversion, I have to explain to you one of my charisms, given to me by the Holy Spirit. From the earliest age I can hear what people are saying and thinking. Now I don’t mean this in a “mind reading” sense, though obviously that is part of it. Rather, I am like the Holy Spirit, because I hover among humans, hearing the overall murmuring of what is going on, what is the state of their souls (don’t ask, that’s not been fun to listen to over the past forty years… the first ten years of my life the sound overall was the best it’s been, and it’s only been downhill since then, at a dire, rapid pace). So I have a constant contact throughout the world and through all people. Let’s call the triumvirate astrology group RAP for short, because I hate typing it all out each time, and it’s droll how that acronym fits them, for a number of reasons. The RAP group would not value this charism, if they had known about it, because they care only about gifts that they can use for manipulative power or money. So they’d much rather “read someone’s mind” or outright spy on their actions than respect what I do. But see, that’s another reason why I have authority and they are profane. God cares more about the state of the world’s souls than anything else, and obviously my ministry was to have been to nudge them back in the right direction, rather than where they were going. So to assume, for example, that I only cared about or was involved with local ethnic groups, for example, is a grave error. I don’t have to read in the newspaper, weep over the bad news, and “donate to good causes” to care about people in China, for example. I have always been there.
Along with this charism comes occasional overhearing of very bad thoughts by people in general and also directed at me. I’ve always heard these thoughts, but because all my authority comes from the pureness of the Holy Spirit, it is unpleasant but kept at a manageable level. Remember, I’ve described in previous blog postings that I was born with full knowledge of and authority to witness to the words and events described in both the Bible and the Qur’an. So I was able to ponder, but not dwell on, for example, the passion and suffering of Jesus Christ before I was five years old. As a result it annoys me greatly when the RAP group has sent in my direction “hints” about the suffering of JC that I’m supposed to “respond” to in some way. I ignore them. Sometimes my avoiding such input might seen “denial” or “squeamish” to them, but obviously if I already know everything there is to know about, well, God and his works, as I was born and also as soon as my human brain could articulate in words the thoughts, one could hardly say I’m either squeamish or in denial of the truth. They are the ones who are so unbelievably warped in their delusions about the “truth,” since they “believe” in the RAP principles, which are all fallacious. So people, obviously not knowing that I have a “dashboard” type of global view of all human’s souls made some really stupid assumptions about what I’m interested in, to say the least.
No one at all knew of this charism, although I inadvertently revealed it once as a child. I’ve told this story before on the blog but now you can link it into my charism for better understanding. I was doing much “work” in this regard one night while I was asleep as a young pre-school child. My mother slept in the same room as me because my father worked night shifts and would come home and sleep in the living room. I was so involved in my “work” that in my sleep I got up, walked to the corner of the bedroom and started making motions. My mother woke and extremely puzzled said, “What are you doing?” I replied, “Picking peaches.” Read about Kuan and peaches on the Internet if you need more enlightenment about my areas of interest and the nature of my work.
So with my “remaining open” to all the world’s souls and my doing my “work,” it was inevitable that I overhear some pretty nasty stuff, both in general and directed toward me. One day I was playing in my back yard on what we called the Jungle Gym (some call the swing set and monkey bars) and I heard and felt the most depraved sexual desire directed toward me by a pedophile man. The Holy Spirit always keeps me sanguine about even the most troubling thoughts and deeds of humans since, well, their depravity is hardly a surprise to anyone. But it was the first example I was given of perversion and animosity directed at me personally. By the way, years later I had genuine in person stalking and attempts to harm me, so it was part of the overall developing RAP pattern.
When I married the man who I married in order to be my bodyguard, since now you can see more clearly, even though I explained this before that I needed one, a huge set of malicious thoughts directed at me commenced and lasted for decades. There’s no nice way to put it, but I could feel people thinking about stabbing my eyes out. I don’t ask for credit or praise a lot, but I wonder how many of you could be as sanguine as I was, enduring decades of those thoughts and feelings (and accompanying genuine physical damage to my eyes). They are so intrusive, unpleasant and personal that I had to talk to someone about them, so obviously I told my husband. Now, remember, no one, including he, had any idea of who I really was (think of me as the “someone with authority to witness”). That’s why I call myself “The Someone” for short. So I presented it to him as being an example of what psychologists call “intrusive thoughts.” He was sympathetic and worked with me on normal human coping mechanisms to redirect the thoughts, which we called “the naughty thoughts” or the “bad thoughts” (just as part of that intimate vocabulary that couples have). But I knew that it was more, and that this would not be sufficient, but being in a human body I had to do something human in origin, and so I did those coping mechanisms and it helped somewhat, but as I said, it persisted for decades. Yes, I’m annoyed, pissed and furious, and so, I can assure you, is God. But I was not put here in order to send hellfire back along the channels that people used to send those thoughts in my direction. God’s got that covered, in his timetable, and in his way.
So you need to know that by the time I tried to handle the RAP group, I had many years of overhearing not so great, and in fact, depraved pagan thoughts about me, and the downfall of the health of the souls of humanity in general. Yet I persisted in trying to engage with the people who are responsible for this global damage and try to witness to them, using their own language, since they had turned away from God and the “institutional church” on their own, in droves. I’m not here to add anything new to what God has revealed and commanded. And so I’m not here to bring people back to the institutional church and to God through new revelations or doing elaborate miraculous X game style “tricks” to impress them. If people leave the institutional church and God then they deserve what will happen to them. I have to be blunt about this, just as the words of God and the Lord Jesus have been very blunt throughout the Bible, and reinforced in the holy Qur’an. So I have plainly refused to be part of the “tricks” and “dueling miracles and dogma” circus that the RAP cabal so dearly admires. It’s all false, the exhibitions and the “miracles” that they manipulate and perform. Anything real and good comes from God, not from the machinations of men or women, boys or girls. I continued to be able to function as an optimistic in nature but frozen in “waiting” witness, even as I was pummeled with sickening thoughts and bodily attacks.
Therefore, you now have a context for understanding this next part of my explanation of how I tried to handle the astrologers. I developed “close” (via the Internet) potential friendships with some of those in the message board who portrayed themselves as “seeking” “fans.” Some wanted to phone me and have phone “consultations.” Several did. And lo and behold, three of the “women” who called me, from widely separated parts of the country, had the exact same voice. I not only never let on that I noticed, but as you now understand, after decades of overhearing the insanity of humans, I wasn’t even curious as to why that was. I didn’t devote one single minute of thinking, “Hmm, are they the same person? And why would they do that?” A culture that had become depraved toward their own little children could do nothing to surprise or excite my curiosity at this point. I continue to function with all people at “face value.” If the same person wanted to pose as three different people, knock yourself out. I continued to think of them as the person that they wished to present themselves as, and this is how I remain a bastion of sanity amidst a world that has collectively lost its mind in falsehood and delusion. No one in the world has what I have. I can and do suffer and mourn what people do, but it does not warp my perceptions, since it comes from God himself to me through the Holy Spirit. I’m what the nutty and dangerous $cientologists would call a “clear,” except of course, clear is my natural condition and there are no stupid reincarnated aliens or past life memories or sprits to clear of from anyone in the first place. But like I said, I like to use the lingo in a respectful way where possible. That never had made my respectful use of the lingo an endorsement of the underlying insane beliefs and totally anti-God and immoral behavior that humans do to one another.
So you need to understand that during the years I tried to deal with the RAP group, and help them be more positive and, well, sane, within their own chosen milieu, I overheard and knew a lot more than I let on, since that’s been one of my charisms throughout this human life. They would put little doses of “hints” and their crazy lore on the message boards, thinking they were directing my “learning” and “enlightenment” about my needed “lessons” (a word I have developed such a loathing for as a result, that you cannot ever begin to understand it, except if I tell you that it’s OK with me if Satan dedicates an entire section of hell labeled “Lessons.”) But all the while I alone know the real state of human souls worldwide, and have endured knowing what is really planned, said and done, directed against me, against the Church, against the unborn babies, and against each other. So some moronic celebrities and depraved psychics masquerading behind their “Gee, golly, gosh I’m so spiritual” facades on the message board did not deceive me at all. This does not mean that I know the mechanisms (who is doing what to whom) because remember, I have a remarkable lack of concern or interest in what flavor of anti-God depravity humans are engaging themselves in. I don’t want to be “friends” with people who are totally plastic and false, and who are no longer able to have a “clear” human thought that is not entangled in a depressive bipolar relativist fantasy writer’s view of the world. I had friends that I cared about in normal human ways: whether they had a good day, how their families are doing, what restaurants they liked, what schools they attend and what subjects they love, and their hobbies. I no longer care about them because their lives are in actuality, “How much did you think you ‘knew’ about who I supposedly was, and how much did you participate in fake activities with real hurtful consequences as a result?” I don’t really care who did what to whom. God knows, God cares, and God is wrathful. All I care about is pissing away my totally wasted life and time waiting for humans, some humans at least, to decide to try to save themselves again, as their ancestors (who are not reincarnated) did, packing heaven with their reality and piety. The RAP group has, however, destroyed the personal persona that I had chosen to bring to humans, one of my charisms that I had kept protected throughout the assaults and harm. I had to send that charism back to sender, God, as it could not maintain its form and existence among falseness. That is why stalkers will notice that in the past several years I have shifted in my language from calling “us” “people” into calling you “humans.” The loving maternal charism of my being among and part of the people is gone. Remember, in the parable of the Prodigal Son. It’s not like the Prodigal son, while he was away and living a dissolute life hired people to go back to his hometown and assault and torment his mother and his father. The loving maternal charism that I had brought and kept protected was unwrapped several years ago and then promptly assaulted (again). God just will not tolerate that and so that gift and charism has been withdrawn from the table. You cannot have missed that as not only did I warn those that could hear that this would happen, but my language and discourse is clearly more of the fire and less of the water, to use a Holy Spirit analogy. You disgusting people. You think you can turn God’s gifts on and off like a switch. You think that you can parade a cute infant past me in the mall and that I will still feel the maternal charism that I kept as best I could under continual daily depraved assault, and now I’m just going to be “alright” again. We can still do a lot of good. But I will never have the maternal charism that I had brought again, because God simply will not allow it to be sullied and manipulated. All that is true simply cannot exist in a vat full of acidic untruth. Truth cannot be destroyed, but it can and does retreat to its natural home, which is heaven.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Part Three: How I tried to handle astrologers
I am going to make this section very short and terse, because it is very distressing to me to see the unbelievable harm that has been self inflicted and inflicted on society as a whole due to those occult beliefs.
The triumvirate “belief” system of reincarnation-astrology-psychics believe not in the traditional Buddhist reincarnation where it happens but it is a mystery, but they believe they can “figure out” “who you used to be” and “what past lives that you had.” Further, they assume that “anything goes.” This is the really perverted “New Age” part. They assume that everyone has been both genders in their life, and actually glorify homosexuality as evidence of this. I can assure you that’s not what Buddha was thinking.
This was no secret and they sure didn’t treat it as a “theory” or “question.” When I once wondered about the abrasive personality of a woman on the message board I was openly told that “she had too many masculine past lives.” It was presented as a fact, just like that.
By the way, it was then that it clicked that a “job counselor” told me years ago that I had “a well developed masculine personality” and I was totally like “Wot?” When he said that I was insulted but did not take it seriously; I mean, I have big boobs and want to be a housewife. When I read that crap on the ass-troll-ogy message board it was then that I realized that I had also been labeled as having “past lives” including “masculine ones” and therefore have the “natural tendency” to be a faggot, oops, I mean gay. I use the term faggot because I am angry and being subversive. The term comes from a type of clothes design that uses fancy needlework to make a pattern of like lacing, and a “faggot” used to be applied to someone who was vain and fussy about their appearance. But I digress into a quick subversive language lesson. Back to the main point: astrology kids grew up in households where their very parents and caregivers assume their kids have latent homosexual tendencies and talents, and they applaud that. It’s one thing to be liberal minded and generous about someone who is gay, and charitable as I always was (“some of my best friends used to be gay” and by that I mean they are still gay but dropped me like a cold straight potato). (That’s more subversive humor).
Astrology kids have their minds and their sexuality manipulated and deformed by their own parents and caregivers, and many of them are exploited and taught how to sexually exploit others. They use “past lives” doctrinal garbage as a grooming tool to get their children and others to engage in homosexual acts, including for power grabbing (striking up relationships on command) and for porn.
As if that is not bad enough, astrology parents teach their kids that not only does everyone have both genders in their “past lives” but they “played different roles” together, such as their child having “been the parent” to their parent in a “past life.” I want to vomit and call down one of the apocalyptic angels even as I think and type this. Yes, they believe that groups of people stick together trading genders and roles and thus they teach their kids that “incest is best.” They will not blink an eye at telling their child that he was a girl in a previous life and that he was fucked by his sister, who was “her” husband in a previous life, while changing the pooh diapers of their baby, who is their dirty auntie or mommy in this life. Oh and by the way they were all related to Jesus.
I wish I was making this up or exaggerating one bit, but sadly for the world, I am not. I just had an unkind thought, but totally justifiable, about who zealous terrorists really should target. How can humanity survive, either literally or with its sanity, when a large and powerful section of the population believes that it is an incestuous sexual free for all and teach (and use) their kids in that manner using as Justification a belief in a totally bogus, dark, dirty and depraved “world view?”
I’ve said all I’m going to say on this matter. There is no question that anyone can ever ask me about this demonic set of "beliefs." I will answer questions about why people truly do feel certain sexual impulses, but I will not dignify this demonic topic by ever answering a question about it itself.
The triumvirate “belief” system of reincarnation-astrology-psychics believe not in the traditional Buddhist reincarnation where it happens but it is a mystery, but they believe they can “figure out” “who you used to be” and “what past lives that you had.” Further, they assume that “anything goes.” This is the really perverted “New Age” part. They assume that everyone has been both genders in their life, and actually glorify homosexuality as evidence of this. I can assure you that’s not what Buddha was thinking.
This was no secret and they sure didn’t treat it as a “theory” or “question.” When I once wondered about the abrasive personality of a woman on the message board I was openly told that “she had too many masculine past lives.” It was presented as a fact, just like that.
By the way, it was then that it clicked that a “job counselor” told me years ago that I had “a well developed masculine personality” and I was totally like “Wot?” When he said that I was insulted but did not take it seriously; I mean, I have big boobs and want to be a housewife. When I read that crap on the ass-troll-ogy message board it was then that I realized that I had also been labeled as having “past lives” including “masculine ones” and therefore have the “natural tendency” to be a faggot, oops, I mean gay. I use the term faggot because I am angry and being subversive. The term comes from a type of clothes design that uses fancy needlework to make a pattern of like lacing, and a “faggot” used to be applied to someone who was vain and fussy about their appearance. But I digress into a quick subversive language lesson. Back to the main point: astrology kids grew up in households where their very parents and caregivers assume their kids have latent homosexual tendencies and talents, and they applaud that. It’s one thing to be liberal minded and generous about someone who is gay, and charitable as I always was (“some of my best friends used to be gay” and by that I mean they are still gay but dropped me like a cold straight potato). (That’s more subversive humor).
Astrology kids have their minds and their sexuality manipulated and deformed by their own parents and caregivers, and many of them are exploited and taught how to sexually exploit others. They use “past lives” doctrinal garbage as a grooming tool to get their children and others to engage in homosexual acts, including for power grabbing (striking up relationships on command) and for porn.
As if that is not bad enough, astrology parents teach their kids that not only does everyone have both genders in their “past lives” but they “played different roles” together, such as their child having “been the parent” to their parent in a “past life.” I want to vomit and call down one of the apocalyptic angels even as I think and type this. Yes, they believe that groups of people stick together trading genders and roles and thus they teach their kids that “incest is best.” They will not blink an eye at telling their child that he was a girl in a previous life and that he was fucked by his sister, who was “her” husband in a previous life, while changing the pooh diapers of their baby, who is their dirty auntie or mommy in this life. Oh and by the way they were all related to Jesus.
I wish I was making this up or exaggerating one bit, but sadly for the world, I am not. I just had an unkind thought, but totally justifiable, about who zealous terrorists really should target. How can humanity survive, either literally or with its sanity, when a large and powerful section of the population believes that it is an incestuous sexual free for all and teach (and use) their kids in that manner using as Justification a belief in a totally bogus, dark, dirty and depraved “world view?”
I’ve said all I’m going to say on this matter. There is no question that anyone can ever ask me about this demonic set of "beliefs." I will answer questions about why people truly do feel certain sexual impulses, but I will not dignify this demonic topic by ever answering a question about it itself.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Flashdance versus American reality
Flashdance was a stupid movie (I know, I repeat myself when I say "stupid") from the 1980's about a female welder who was a hot dancer trying to find herself at night. Another of those phony pictures with phony ideas of what women should aspire to (a man's job, but then doing the prelude to pole dancing, with water and a chair).
Well, here's reality. A homeless welder is beaten to death by roving teenagers, while passersby slow down to watch. His sister describes in this article how terribly he was killed and the wounds on his body.
http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/sns-ap-homeless-attack,0,6144789.story
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CLEVELAND - A group of teenagers beat a homeless man to death as passers-by slowed to watch the attack, some of which was caught on videotape, police said.Anthony Waters, 42, suffered a lacerated spleen and broken ribs during the attack Wednesday night and died at a hospital, police said.
"The pack mentality going on in the city of Cleveland must end," police Commander Calvin Williams said Thursday at a news conference where he urged the attackers to come forward.
Portions of the attack were caught on a surveillance camera outside G&M Towing Co. on the city's east side. Police said the videotape shows passing cars slowing to watch three teens attack Waters until he staggered into the parking lot, where he was assisted by G&M employees.
Well, here's reality. A homeless welder is beaten to death by roving teenagers, while passersby slow down to watch. His sister describes in this article how terribly he was killed and the wounds on his body.
http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/sns-ap-homeless-attack,0,6144789.story
snip
CLEVELAND - A group of teenagers beat a homeless man to death as passers-by slowed to watch the attack, some of which was caught on videotape, police said.Anthony Waters, 42, suffered a lacerated spleen and broken ribs during the attack Wednesday night and died at a hospital, police said.
"The pack mentality going on in the city of Cleveland must end," police Commander Calvin Williams said Thursday at a news conference where he urged the attackers to come forward.
Portions of the attack were caught on a surveillance camera outside G&M Towing Co. on the city's east side. Police said the videotape shows passing cars slowing to watch three teens attack Waters until he staggered into the parking lot, where he was assisted by G&M employees.
Friday, May 2, 2008
Men in car chase dog walker, killing her pet
An Australian woman walking her three dogs was pursued by 3 men in a red hatchback car, who taunted her as they ran over her pets, killing one (though it sounds like two in this article). They yelled "run, bitch!" as they ran over her one year old puppy.
Aussies, man up and find these bastards.
Yanks, join me in fantasizing how we wish she was packing heat and pulled out her Glock.
http://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/articles/2008/05/02/1209235113393.html?s_rid=smh:top5
Aussies, man up and find these bastards.
Yanks, join me in fantasizing how we wish she was packing heat and pulled out her Glock.
http://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/articles/2008/05/02/1209235113393.html?s_rid=smh:top5
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Health condition of Austria monster's children
This is a good article about the unbelievable horror of the daughter who was raped and caged by the monster "father," forced to bear his children underground for over twenty years.
With all the depravity in the world, I wish people would come to their senses and start to root these types of shit-who-claim-to-be-humans out instead of making up religions, obsessing about imaginary aliens and past lives, and wanking to kiddie porn. Worried about "the Antichrist?" Well, I suggest humans regain their humanity in a hurry.
http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2008/04/30/1209234954803.html
With all the depravity in the world, I wish people would come to their senses and start to root these types of shit-who-claim-to-be-humans out instead of making up religions, obsessing about imaginary aliens and past lives, and wanking to kiddie porn. Worried about "the Antichrist?" Well, I suggest humans regain their humanity in a hurry.
http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2008/04/30/1209234954803.html
Sunday, March 9, 2008
How child molesters/murderers get their start
http://www.statesmanjournal.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080309/NEWS/803090330/1001
snip
Teenagers held on animal-abuse charges
Female mallard duck was mutilated in a Canby park
The Associated Press
March 9, 2008
CANBY — Two Canby High School students who were playing hooky are held on felony animal-abuse charges after a female mallard duck was mutilated in the city park.
Canby Police were notified Thursday by a witness that the two, ages 15 and 17, threw rocks at nesting ducks, hitting and stunning one of the birds.
They then tried to cut its head off and pulled two eggs from the duck while it was still alive. One then hit the duck several times with a rock, and they tried to cut and pull the intestines from the duck.
The witness reported that he saw one of the suspects throwing eggs from the duck at people in the park, police quoted the witness as saying.
snip
Teenagers held on animal-abuse charges
Female mallard duck was mutilated in a Canby park
The Associated Press
March 9, 2008
CANBY — Two Canby High School students who were playing hooky are held on felony animal-abuse charges after a female mallard duck was mutilated in the city park.
Canby Police were notified Thursday by a witness that the two, ages 15 and 17, threw rocks at nesting ducks, hitting and stunning one of the birds.
They then tried to cut its head off and pulled two eggs from the duck while it was still alive. One then hit the duck several times with a rock, and they tried to cut and pull the intestines from the duck.
The witness reported that he saw one of the suspects throwing eggs from the duck at people in the park, police quoted the witness as saying.
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