Another creative writing/detox exercise

I hope that many of you enjoyed and found useful and thought provoking my previous blog entries suggesting ways to refresh one's creative writing process. The purpose is to lose many of the depressive, occult and anti-life, anti-God and anti-spiritual seepage that modern society and entertainment has imposed, especially on the young.

While having lunch today (pizza) I suddenly thought of another scenario that you could use as the basis for a creative writing exercise. As with my previous suggestions you can either fully develop the storyline or you can just use it as a point to think about and receive some creative inspiration. As always the story lines that I suggest may have an element of "fantasy" or "science fiction," but are firmly grounded in reality and what is easily possible and feasible. Whenever you write, strive for that yourself, since it keeps the mind and spirit from becoming toxic, where it only imagines the unfeasible (under the "anything is possible" delusion) and the relentlessly warlike or depressive.

Storyline:

Suppose that during the time that the Nazis were in power, both previous to and during World War II until their fall, they had a secret activity, one that would become obvious and virtually inescapable only after they had been defeated.

What if the Nazis had worked to infest all materials throughout the world with evidence of their insignia and sayings. For example, they would get a person in every factory in the world to secret within the manufacturing process an engraving of "Heil Hitler." So every automobile, for example, would have in the chassis those words engraved somewhere, and every automotive part that was made had initials, or dates, or that saying, or some other saying, or the swastika engraved. What if clothes makers in their hire hid within the folded hems of all clothes being manufactured Nazi sayings. So for example, within the cuff of trousers, or within the pocket of blue jeans, secret embroideries were placed. And what if within every book printed during those years, Nazi sympathizers inserted "Heil Hitler" in the spines of the book? Food containers would have special lettering hidden under the lid or the labels, or in the box flaps, and so forth. What if masons laid stones in houses, buildings, churches with such things carved?

Now, in this scenario, there is no point to their doing this other than to keep the wounds open forever, after they are gone. Do not develop this storyline the obvious modern way, which is that they do with with "special powers." Think of it as unbelievably comprehensive anticipatory stalking, and nothing else.

So the way this storyline works, even after the Nazis are defeated, the guilty are jailed or executed, and history unfolds exactly as it actually did (Beatles and all, Vietnam, etc...) everyone around the world is constantly reminded on a daily basis of Nazi dogma as their labels and slogans continue to inescapably pop up everywhere.

So........... develop in your story line what life and the human psyche would be like today if that occurred. Remember, history is exactly the same (for example, Mr. Obama is President now) with the only difference being that everyone everywhere receives constant daily unpleasant reminders of Nazi doctrine, even sewn into their underwear.

Suggestions to explore:

1. Do people become resigned and manage to "turn it off" or do they fight back and there is an industry formed of people who try to root out these continuous stalking messages?

2. How far can they go in rooting it out, if every home built during that era has something hidden in it about Nazis?

3. How would this have affected Shoah survivors and specifically Jews, both in and outside of Israel?

4. How would the priorities of the Israeli government differ if they too are burdened with this continuous stalking within all their products?

5. What would the schools be teaching kids about this problem? What would they teach and is it different than what you, as the creative author, think they should be teaching?

To get the right mindset, picture these as verbal and written IEDs. So just as IEDs have been a terrible weapon in Iraq, imagine Nazi verbal and pictorial "IEDs" that are planted absolutely everywhere, in secret places, found when least expected.

For example, your favorite shirt pocket tears and when you go to fix it there in the torn seams staring back at you is a tiny embroidery label of "Heil Hitler?"

Would this stalking eventually make modern kids curious and think that something so powerful as this plan must mean being a Nazi is worth looking into? Would society be dealing with half of its population freaked and wearied by this stalking, while the younger half has to battle being tempted and intrigued by it?

Think about it and sleep well. LOL.

Case study: why spying leads to worse information

One of the things that the cultists who stalk me are most proud of is that they "know everything about me." This was told to me by one of the head cultists in 2003. This is how I first realized that far from being just nosy neighbors of the ordinary sort, they actually have wiretapped my home for many years, being fascinated with every detail of my life including, puzzlingly, bathroom habits. That fascination continues to even today, and if only I had realized it sooner I could have started a potty blog for them and saved them the effort. It just isn't all that mysterious.

Back to my case study, though, to illustrate my main point. The past two generations believe that "knowledge is power" and they glorify spies in popular culture and so forth. That is great when done in a sane context. Yes, in armed conflict (or suspicious times), nations have great incentive to spy on each other about military capabilities and plans. And yes, knowledge is power, because a dummy should not pretend to be an expert on a subject without gaining knowledge through study, practice, apprenticeship, life experience, etc.

But here is the problem. The more "details" of activities and even thoughts that a stalker collects about a person, such as me, the more they lose sight of what is actually holistically going on. Worse, they start to draw opposite conclusions to the truth. For our case study, let's use some specific examples from my life.

Scenario one: Cultists never observe me reading the Bible.

Wrong conclusion: They conclude that I am either irreligious or that the Bible is irrelevant.

Factual truth: I read the entire Bible around the age of thirteen and retain perfect recall. Additionally, I was born with the ability to witness to the truth of what is in the Bible and the Qur'an.

So here is a stark example of how statistical and "knowledge" building data collection is totally bogus. Far from measuring my devotion to the Bible, attempting to measure my devotion by the number of times I read the Bible has drawn cultists to a conclusion opposite to the truth. I am living devotion to the Bible and it is engraved, spiritually, in my heart. I only turn to the Bible when I am blogging or when I wish to lose myself in the comfort of what is there. I was doing neither when cultists attempted to demonize me via "counting" my supposed usage of the Bible.

I could give other examples but this is the key, the heart of the problem of stalking, and I'll leave this one to my readers to meditate upon.

This, by the way, is why gossip, stalking and spying is a violation of the Eighth Commandment about false witnessing against one's neighbor. One collects judgmental and often false or gravely misunderstood information against someone who is the victim of gossip, spying and stalking, and thus comes to believe and communicate calumny, lies and distortions, ALL of which is false witness in God's eyes (remember, the Bible explains that even thoughts are sins; it is not necessary to act upon those thoughts).

Gossip, stalking and spying for "tech" reasons are also a violation, in addition to the Eighth Commandment, to the First Commandment against false gods and idolatry. Collecting power enhancing information against another person is putting that "tech" and activity ahead of God in determining the purpose and direction to that person's life. One cannot "tech" and serve God; God will not tolerate other masters.

For example, one has no way of knowing that an adulterous affair that results in a baby is not ultimately the will of God. God is not saying that adultery is no longer a sin. However, only God knows all the paths of all people who ever lived, and it is often his will that humans cannot understand how their own actions (say nothing of their "neighbors") fit into his plan. A woman who is gossiped about and demonized for having an adulterous baby is thus treated in an extremely ungodly way by the stalkers. Nowhere in the Bible does it say that people should take justice into their own hands based on evil gossip. Rather, Jesus explicitly comdemns hypocriscy and turns into disciples many who were accused by the hypocrites of "sin."

God has a plan for everyone. Why do hypocrite Christians stalk others and thus gossip, oppress and put their feet on the necks of those they spy on, harming them with their sinful thoughts and deeds, when they should confess that they know that God has a plan-known only to him-for everyone?

I blogged before that thank God the "righteous" early Christians did not decide to slay Saul, their chief persecutor, out of "self defense." If gossipers and stalkers had their way, they would have killed Saul before he became Paul.

God will not tolerate having his will hampered by spies, gossipers and stalkers.

So ponder how the "counting how many times I read or do not read the Bible" led to a complete misunderstanding and hampering of God's plan and will for my life, and think about how those deeds are in direct conflict and offense to the First and Eighth Commandments (not a good place to be in if one hopes to be saved upon death).

Some small good news on the occult frontlines

Well, I can't really give specifics, but there is some small good news, I believe, in my ongoing attempt to educate, redeem and rescue the cultists who have practiced occult and even black magic, and who have stalked me.

I have reason to believe that finally even the most psychotic of them is finally convinced that I am not "reincarnated St. Lucy."

Don't worry about the details of how I know; it's kind of an inside joke.

Another roach, this one under Jesus's Cross

Well, the roach parade continues.

This one in broad daylight, as most of them are, on the wall under my "In the Name of Jesus" cross and across from my copy of a painting of the Blessed Virgin Mary grieving next to the crucified Jesus, and a picture of a palm tree, which makes me think of Arabia.

I took a photograph and I'll see if I can post it here. I guess that's what people want to see more than good will and discussion of God and his goodness.

So I guess I'll cancel or postpone the case study I was going to do of President FDR.

Too much false shame, not enough real shame

The human body and its functions, both those of intimacy and those of natural processes, are nothing to be ashamed of. It is ironic that rather than being more enlightened in this regard people have become laden with shame about the human body.

The reason that is happening is that people lack enough shame in how they promote usage of the blameless shame free body. For example porn and sexually explicit entertainment people ought to be ashamed that they are promoting exploitation and degradation of the human body and its functions.

It is one of the great lies that those who use sex in entertainment are "celebrating the beauty of the human body." That they are most certainly not doing. What they are doing is pimping for sexual dysfunction and promoting amateur and professional sex trade mentality. THAT is what they should be ashamed about.

Thus, let's look at stalking. The person who is photographed naked by a stalker has nothing to be ashamed of, although embarrassment is natural among many people who are so cruelly victimized. However, the stalker is usually the first hypocrite who claims that the human body is "beautiful" and "natural," but what they do with the exploitation of both the victim and the viewers belies their proper placement of shame.

Everyone in the media, including advertisers, who focus so much on nakedness, intimate acts and bodily functions in the flogging of their products claim they are just "getting the information out there" and being "liberating" because there is "nothing to be shamed about." They are being deliberately deceiving. No, there is nothing shameful about nakedness, intimate acts, or bodily functions, but their explicit marketing of them for money, entertainment, or cruelty is degrading to humanity.

Here is an example that is separate from what I am speaking of, but will best explain through analogy my point.

I had a dear friend, a man, one who is remarkable in both being a "regular guy" and also his very interesting life experiences. He's a guy who one would never run out of fascinating things to talk about, what he has done, who he knows and his interests. But he decided to no longer be a guy of many interests, but he is now "gay." His entire identity and all he wants to talk about with me is gay, gay, gay. In other words, rather than being a composite of being an average guy and an extraordinary guy, with tons of dimensions, one of those dimensions being that he is gay, he has packaged himself and will only communicate with me as being one dimension, being gay.

Suppose you had a friend who was a shoe maker. What if he refused to speak to you unless it was about shoes? EVER. He dressed like a shoe, lived in a shoe, would only speak in words that have to do with shoe or rhyme with shoe, and refused to discuss any topic that does not involve shoes. This is what my gay friend has become. He has no identity or interest in life except being gay.

This is what it is like when people claim they love the human body, yet then exploit it constantly in the media, and personally. It is a warping and a skewing of what is only one thread out of the total fabric of life. Sex, being naked, doing intimate acts and having bodily functions are only individual threads out of the entire fabric of a man or a woman. Coarse and exploitative entertainment, advertising and stalking pull that one thread of life out of context and rub people's faces in it repeatedly, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again until they have ruined the "naturalness" they claim to tout.

This is how my gay friend is. I wish I could just go to a restaurant with him, discuss his car or his airplane, shop for clothes, or just hang out together and discuss how one's day went. But all he wants to talk about is gay, gay, gay. He's no longer an uncle: he's a gay guy. He's no longer the guy who smiled about his first car: he's a gay guy. He no longer wants to talk about himself, unless it is about how he is gay. Before he broke off with me as a friend I would have to strain to find ways to discuss being gay with him for hour after hour after hour. Literally, he would insist on speaking of being gay for hours on end and refuse to make even one sentence comments on any other subject. I'm not joking when I say that I think he has studied if he can replace the entire twenty six A through Z English language alphabet with only the three letters A, G and Y. Likewise, I think that he no longer wishes to use the numerical digits 1 through 9 but only the numbers 6 and 9. I'm not joking.

Likewise the constant pimping in the media of nakedness, intimate acts and bodily functions render humans into nothing else but skin bags, rectum holes (for sex or gas) and pimps and procuresses (that's an old fashioned word for female pimps) for 'careers' or 'self images' to the young to think of themselves that way, as pieces of a whole rather than the entire human being.

So no, there is nothing to be ashamed about in the human body, but yes, there is something that everyone should be ashamed about, which is the dehumanizing of the the dignity of the human body in an overall life context, and not as a weapon or recruiting agent in a visual war of coarsening dehumanizing.

An early sign of society coarsening, downfall

Many years ago, this would have been in the late 1980's, something happened that I've never forgotten, and it bothers me to this day because it's one of those small cruelties that is a warning sign for society at large.

My ex- and I were vacationing, visiting Native American friends, in New Mexico. We decided to send a post card to his nephew who is developmentally disabled. We knew he'd love these special post cards where instead of a photograph, the "card" was a thin sheet of copper engraved with pretty scenes, animals and so forth. Pasted to the sheet of copper was piece of cardboard, which was like a normal postcard where you wrote the address and your message and placed the stamp.

Weeks later we were visiting and shown that the postcard had arrived without the copper. Someone had gone through the trouble to peel off around all four edges the copper, loosen it from the glue, and let the torn piece of cardboard continue on its way through the US mail. Imagine how the peeled off backing made it through the mail just fine and into the very hurt and baffled hands of our developmentally disabled nephew. While not a child in years at the time, it was still a crushing disappointment and one we could not remedy, obviously.

Worse is that he had not realized what he received (that it was marred and incomplete) so until his parents spoke up, he just wondered why we sent him a tatty ratty piece of cardboard from New Mexico.

This was way before the "expensive copper" syndrome; this was just mean.

Catechism of the Catholic Church (hell, part two)

1859 Mortal sin requires full knowledge and complete consent. It presupposes knowledge of the sinful character of the act, of its opposition to God's law. It also implies a consent sufficiently deliberate to be a personal choice. Feigned ignorance and hardness of heart (Mt 3:5-6; Lk 16:19-31) do NOT diminish, but rather increase, the voluntary nature of a sin.

(I place the emphasis there because many who have stalked and tormented me think that "oh, what we are doing is not really wrong" or "harden their hearts to be cruel because they think they 'have to be cruel.'" The Catechism points out that both feelings actually worsen, rather than 'mitigate' the commission of mortal sin because there is a deliberateness of thought and of a 'setting to' do the sin. Think of feigned ignorance and hardness of heart as signs of extra premeditation of conducting mortal sin.)

1861 Mortal sin is a radical possibility of human freedom, as is love itself. It results in the loss of charity and the privation of sanctifying grace, that is, of the state of grace. If it is not redeemed by repentance and God's forgiveness, it causes exclusion from Christ's kingdom and the eternal death of hell, for our freedom has the power to make choices for ever, with no turning back. However, although we can judge that an act is in itself a grave offense, we must entrust judgment of persons to the justice and mercy of God.

(I think this is pretty clear. Let me point out the last sentence though. No one has a right to judge what someone else is doing; only God has that right. Here, we are not speaking of the law, for obviously we can identify people breaking the civil law. We are speaking here of someone deciding they can judge someone else's real or perceived sin. For example, those who stalked and photographed my private life when I was not in public ministry, trying to 'catch me in sin' and who disseminated that material have offended against God to his very face. This is true even if I was not the "someone," but any private person cannot be stalked, silently and behind their back accused and judged of sin, and persecuted, because by that you push God out of his chair and do an injustice not only against the secretly stalked but you have also made God your enemy by your presumption. I hope this is very clear to you all).

McCain's war record

I was going to respond to something I heard on a talk show about the left attacking McCain's war record. I wanted to read what they actually are saying, but ran into biggest asshole employee Todd and company's jamming of my computer access this morning (it has been going on again for some days on and off.... it's fairly predictable because these are astrology trolls and whenever a planet goes retrograde, etc they act up because they *have to * *sniff sob* in order to *save the world* *sniff snort* and *restore the balance*. They disgust me. So, anyway, I did not get to read the actual criticism of McCain. I am assuming that it is something like "just because he was active duty and POW does not mean he's more qualified to be President."

No, but here is where it is a major character differentiator, even though McCain is too modest and tongue tied (his "oration challenged" often, hopefully that will improve with time and verbal confidence). McCain had connections, being as his father was very high in the military. The Viet Cong considered releasing him at several points in order to look good. This is while they are still torturing him and his colleagues, mind you. But they thought they would do the right thing and let go the kid of a big USA military guy. McCain turned down the offers for early release. Yes, he could have got "early" release (after years of already being tortured and captive) but McCain turned it down. Why? First, there is a military code of conduct. There is a pecking order that military guys obey, where the lowest rank and longest prisoner service member gets first dibs at being released. McCain has enormous honor and would not let himself be released before others. Second, he would not let his dad's influence have any bearing. He's not an elitist like some I could mention.

If anything what I have just pointed out is of enormous credit and character reference to his being more qualified to be President than really anyone I can think of right now. Young weasels with big mouths we have in abundance. A man who let himself be tortured and prisoner for additional years rather than stomp on an underling to get out of POW earlier is the type of guy who makes conscientious and wise, character based, strong decisions as President.

Hi "Todd", how are you going to like real hell?

For those of you new to the conversation, Todd is the name of one of the stalkers, who specializes in stalking, harassing and harming me through the computer and Internet. Todd's been a very busy creep for many years. He works for the world's biggest asshole. Todd and his cohorts don't seem to realize that their boss is not going to keep them from going to hell, as sure as I am writing this. There is no justification for what they are doing, and no Timing of their Conversion. Any child who is Catholic could explain to you that Confession does not "work" (is not validly given) if someone sins cynically "right up to a point in time that they have planned to 'stop sinning'" and have a planned "conversion." That is basic to Catholic cathecism (and is true whether you believe in Catholicism and/or God or not). So keep it up Todd and gang and you can bank on your guaranteed ticket to hell for all eternity (and it ain't like no cartoon hell, it's for real and it's bad).

Ta ta assholes. Have a nice day.

Great essay about dangers of gossip and lies

There's mystery and controversy surrounding the probable suicide of a young Persian Jewish girl in CA at her friend's apartment. A lot of accusations are flying on message boards and so forth while the investigation continues, I guess. I'm not up on all the issues but one message board had a link to this great opinion essay by a Jewish scholar to attempt to stop the incredibly hateful and destructive "discourse." I highly recommend reading it because it touches on all of the things I have warned about regarding false accusations, lying, malicious gossip, slander, stalking and so forth, all from the ancient and unique Jewish perspective, which of course Christianity has its roots in also (as does Islam by sharing the same patriarchal fathers and prophets).

http://www.jewishjournal.com/opinion/article/a_persian_tragedy_20080611/

snip from a comment to this article by "The Web Guy":

Judaism is intensely aware of the power of speech and of the harm that can be done through speech. The rabbis note that the universe itself was created through speech. Of the 43 sins enumerated in the Al Chet confession recited on Yom Kippur, 11 are sins committed through speech. The Talmud tells that the tongue is an instrument so dangerous that it must be kept hidden from view, behind two protective walls (the mouth and teeth) to prevent its misuse. The harm done by speech is even worse than the harm done by stealing or by cheating someone financially, because amends can be made for monetary harms, but the harm done by speech can never be repaired. For this reason, some sources indicate that there is no forgiveness for lashon ha-ra (disparaging speech).

Fourth stalking example: Buddhism for the young

My niece is born Catholic, but not raised in the faith at all, really. And she's also of that generation who grew up smoking pot in high school, which she did. She's a wonderful girl and very sweet, but like many of that generation the focus was not on reality. She has found herself now in a great career, has her first home, a fine boyfriend, and even hangs out with the occasional "celebrity" through her job.

But years ago when she was still starting out on her career and bouncing around in relationships, she sent me a birthday or Christmas gift, I forget which (probably birthday because Christmas would have been very strange), that really made me raise an eyebrow. She sent me a Buddha statue and with it a note assuring me that it would "bring me luck." This would have been in the 1990's I think. Much more than fifteen years ago as best as I can recall.

Now, on face value this was understandable as part of the "generation X chic" about mystical Far East decorations and so forth. But I'm no fool. I knew that someone had been 1) talking to her about "New Age" Buddhism (since traditional Buddhism is more prosaic and devout than handing out Buddha as a good luck charm) and 2) put her up to giving one to me. But she lived across the country and had been out of touch for many years (she was mad at me for a whole lot of years because I once chastised her about how much my brother, her dad, had to work and worry to pay her bills), so I did not know any of her circle of friends and acquaintances, or her mindset really. I was touched that she cared enough that I was going through difficult times to want to send me "good luck" so I valued the gift accordingly. But I am no idiot. I knew that someone had deliberately gotten to her to "convert" her to some crazy New Age beliefs (not authentic Buddhism) and was also trying to get to me. Again, they keep thinking that I'll take the hint and bite my lip in dramatic agony, wringing my hands and going, "Oh My! I Must Have Had A Tragic Past Life! Some Money Grubbing Insane Person Who Is Spiritually Enlightened Please Help Me!" *Pauses to throw up a little in my mouth*

Well, imagine when we forward in time to the year 2003. I was still in touch with an ex boyfriend, mostly because I was concerned about his tendency to alcoholism. So we tried to stay email friends. I used to be close to his children. Well, imagine when one day he emails me to tell me his oldest daughter has "gotten in Buddhism" and "given him some books to read." HA HA HA. How stupid do I look? (A lot I guess). It took me one nanosecond to make the connection. Ten years had passed and the same "approach" was being used: get to the generation X of non formed Christian youth and convert them to the insane "New Age version of so called Buddhism" (again, not a slam at the traditional faith, but one of this manipulable 'past lives' mush of garbage).

Once again I do not take the bait and once again I put a positive good Christian spin on it. I mean, these are people who while born C of E only attend on Christmas and have no real faith, plus they have mondo drinking problems. So I thought, well, having some spirituality, even yucky and poopy spirituality, is better than nothing. The ex-boyfriend even went on a semi-spiritual Buddhist location type vay cay (vacation) and mentioned that it helped him have a different view of his drinking. So I figured, hey, that's what I wanted, for him to dry up and get some sort of spiritual perspective, and so I let it pass without criticism and just encouragement of a generic sort.

But how stupid do these people think I was? They must have thought, "Core! She is dense and dumb, in addition to being too old and too fat!" ("Core" is an old fashioned Brit exclamation, ha ha, just being literary here.) They keep twirling NAB (New Age Buddhism) in front of me and "getting to" the next generation of poorly formed Christians (something I am painfully aware of and part of my mission that was put on hold by the stalkers, obviously) and I just would not react! I'd like to think that it was around this time that they started getting a clue. I mean, they saw me praying in St Patrick's Cathedral several years before, so duh, what would that have been about if I was "wallowing" not "remembering" my poor and pathetic "past lives?" *Throws up in mouth a little more*

See, this is the problem. They don't want the truth. They want everyone to believe whatever crap they pull out of their drunk and stoned asses and say that "it's all relative, so long as you are spiritual." Christianity (and Islam) have done people no favors by not talking about the reality of hell and how many people are going to go to hell because of being mini anti-Christs (while accusing others of actually being the Antichrist) and for preying on the poorly formed younger generations.

Third stalking example: creepy alien rapture

In the late 1980's through mid 1990's I worked in the advanced technology section of a major Wall Street bank. I had a group of mostly well adjusted and normal people working for me, though the occasional odd thing did happen that I noticed.

The most obvious is that one day one gave me a xeroxed "report" for me to look at. This was in the early 1990's and would have been around the time of the first World Trade Center bombing. I don't have any of my office diaries with me, but I think this happened before the bombing. Anyway, one of my employees gave me this "xeroxed report" "as a laugh." It was long and totally unreadable. It was some sort of insane "revelation" by someone or something with a Z in the name about "the Rapture" and "aliens." If you put insane chimpanzees on LSD for a year they could have come up with something better than this garbage. It was so awful that I could not even read it for the lulz.

I knew on the spot that it was no "coincidence" that an otherwise wholesome member of my staff would have such a crazy piece of crap as this fall into his hands. Remember, this was in the day before spamming in email where all sorts of stuff now flies around, both crazy and sane. This was a xeroxed pamphlet kind of thing, sounding a lot like the secret teachings of Scientology, except even dafter, if you can imagine that. So I knew that this was a deliberate effort to get a "reaction" from me. My reaction was, as I said, that it wasn't palatable to read even for a sick twisted giggle. So I didn't even pick it apart to critique it because it was just totally unreadable to anyone who was sane, honestly. Buddhism I could pick apart and critique, for example. But aliens and the rapture with totally hysterical (as in manic depressive) "concepts" that make atheists look like they have their heads screwed on straight? I just handed it back with an *eyeroll*.

I guess the stalkers thought I was particularly stupid to not appreciate the brilliance of "the secrets" being handed right to me. Oh my God, will this human race survive? It has such a death wish.

Second stalking example: Saturday Night Live

Ah yes, the strange story of the "Saturday Night Live" television show. It has been around for decades. It had a "glory period" early on, when many people who became famous were in its cast. It has many skits and characters that are "iconic."

One famous skit mentions the name of my high school best friend's family. Trust me, I knew that it was no coincidence from the moment I first saw the skit. However, as I explained in my first example of stalking post, I tended to think these were deliberate but unconscious attempts to "get at me" by those who were using unwholesome powers and anti-God beliefs. So I knew that the skit was actually deliberately using my best friend's family's name, but thought that it was kind of a lucky shot in the dark, deliberate but not actually having identifying me personally or my private ministry. Well, so that's nearly thirty years ago and my second example of what I identified on the spot as being stalking, though I thought it was unconsciously done regarding my true identity. I was part right because little did I realize what moronic and dangerous beliefs they had which kept them from understanding my true identity. So I was right about that; they did not really know who I was. But this shows how pathetic and wasteful decades have been of making my life a miserable living hell when all I had meant to do was to guide people back to the authoritative truth that had already been given to them, and restore spiritual health and sanity.

At least now these smug assholes know that I wasn't the dumb cluck sitting there not knowing I was being stalked. I just thought it was unconscious and they could not help it. All the worse for them, in God's eyes, that it was malicious, manipulative, mocking and, obviously, conscious and deliberate.

Message for "foot soldiers" of reality show cultists

Here is a message to you “foot soldiers” of the cultists and stalkers. You are in the direst peril of being most severely chastised by God when it is your personal time of judgment. There is no such thing as a “small” act of idolatry. If you put on a special outfit, drive with a car with a certain “message” in the license plate or otherwise, put on some fake conversation or show in front of me in a public place, or do any other activity “on command” from your handlers, you are committing idolatry against God himself just as seriously as if you were throwing down a cross and worshipping the graven image of the golden calf itself. This is why.

It’s not the fact that you are “fooling me” or “do some reality show kind of punking” with me that is the problem. I’ve explained this before but let me make myself perfectly clear to you. The assumptions behind each of these commands that you are given (and reimbursed for) is that God is not God, as he is clearly stated to be in both the Bible and the Qur’an, and as Jesus Christ himself explained when he was alive in public ministry on earth. The fact that I am have been a lifelong target of these thousands of small acts of “idolatry” is simply because cultists have incorrectly perceived not only my identity but everyone else’s, because of their belief in a manipulate-able so called “reincarnation,” which does not exist. So you have been yourselves manipulated and directed to make fools of yourselves in both large and small ways because the string pullers do not believe in the God and the universe he willed and created exactly as it is stated in the Bible and in the Qur’an. Thus, you are idolaters, one of the gravest offenses against God himself, to his face. You think that whenever you perform some high jinks little reality show that 1) God does not know and see not only the action, but all the planning up to it and 2) that God does not realize that mocking or manipulating me is simply your form of “ceremony” to worship the false idolatrous beliefs that the cultists espouse?

I’ve been aware of being stalked and manipulated by “people” and “events” for forty years. Yes, for forty years I have identified these events as they occurred. The only thing is that I thought they were the unconscious doings of people, because evil is always attracted to good, even if it is unaware of the good’s true identity. In the Bible, Satan converses with Jesus and God himself (Book of Job). Judas was “filled with Satan” at the moment that he decided to betray Jesus, but Judas was not aware that he was filled with Satan. He thought he was doing “the right thing,” for political and religious reasons (just ask any Judas apologist, ha). But my point is that Judas did not KNOW that Satan was in him. He did not get an email from Satan to do something, or did he see Satan’s shadowy form ooze into his body, or feel him in his mind. Most normal people are not aware when they are being influenced by Satan or, more commonly, the sin of Adam and their own sinful brokenness, coveting and hubris, which is human in origin, not satanic. Therefore I assumed that every encounter that I had over the past forty years that was of this cultist stalking was actually individuals who were gravitating to me unbeknownst to them in order to do or say things that challenged my hidden core identity. So I was fully aware of every manipulative event over the past forty years, but thought they were done unconsciously even to the doers of these events. But remember, GOD KNOWS. God saw all, even the very beginning of the erroneous and the wicked beliefs, thoughts and plans of each of the individuals and, as it turns out, the groups that did this to me, and to the entire world. You snickered that it was “The Truman Show?” Well, God was not snickering through these decades that he has watched what you all have done, and you will pay for it and answer for it in full, and it won’t be nice.

Cult stalkers at it again

Here's the latest thing they do to harass and harm me. They light cigarette after cigarette and let them burn near where air is taken into my apartment. For example, it comes in through the air vents, and also by the opening in the ceiling where the hot water heater pipes go through. It's been burning nonstop yesterday and today and of course I am breathing nonstop second hand smoke, which is the intention.

So I've opened the door to the utility closet so that the smoke can more freely enter the room. Since I can't stop them and even opening windows does no good, I've decided to let them poison me at their will. So I'm taking deep breaths and sitting near where the smoke most enters my apartment. God sees, knows.

[By the way, here is some background information on why this is a technique of theirs. First of all, cultists mock the use of incense during Catholic and Orthodox religious ceremonies, through the use of cigarette smoke and also pot smoke. Those who are into the Native American cleansing ritual of using sage to "smudge" and thus purify a room also jokingly refer to their pot smoking as "smudging." Cigarette and pot smoke, known cancer causing agents (both for smokers and second hand breathers of the smoke) are also used in express anger and passive aggressive rage toward people whose so called "karma" they blame for the infliction of cancer on someone in their family. Yes, there are people that evil and stupid in the world that they think a family member develops cancer 'because of reincarnation or karma due to or on the behest of someone else's past life issues with them.' Finally, cigarettes and cigars are a shorthand for certain sexual acts, think Bill Clinton and the intern. That type of thing is not uncommon in cult, um, past times and recreation.] Sorry to disgust innocent readers, but it is at the point that you have to know what is going on, as puke making as it is to hear about.

Biblical and current life examples of losing grace

Specific examples of how individual people lose grace.

God bestows grace, but he can, and does, take it away. This was totally understood in the previous generations and completely misunderstood among many Christians today. Some well educated people continue to use in a secular manner the expression “a fall from grace,” yet do not recognize that this also refers to a spiritual condition. Many, especially non-denominational and evangelical Christians, think that grace is something that you accumulate from God (true) but that once gained it is like gold bricks in a vault and cannot be tarnished or lost (untrue). A most vivid example is King Solomon in the Bible. He had an abundance of grace, yet he lost that very grace through his late in life hedonism and worship of idols. God gave King Solomon literally everything, both the abundance of spiritual grace and salvation (to use the popular evangelical term) and control over the forces of nature, including great material wealth (just because archaeologists cannot dig it up does not mean that the gold etc. did not exist… it simply was carried away by pagan nations during the various falls of Israel). King Solomon died in a state of fall from grace, where he squandered away the grace he had accumulated from God. This is in contrast to King David who committed some very stupid sins, but who never ever once turned his back on God himself and his grace. David sinned in behavior, but never deviated from God himself. Also, David sinned while there was plenty of time for him in his life to immediately atone and perform penance and remediation. Solomon died without performing penance and remediation. Therefore David died with the grace he accumulated intact, while Solomon died having to trust in the mercy of God, the very God he turned from and worshipped against. Just like the gold of his kingdom, which was huge in quantity and quality, yet was lost and carried off by pagans, so was the grace of Solomon thrown away by his own actions.

Now I will warn you about how I have observed this very loss of grace among many people who surround me. As I’ve blogged before, while I’m totally a physical and humble human, I was born being aware of the complete truth of the contents of the Bible and the Qur’an, and also with a mission to not redo or not add or subtract, but to witness to the purity of the faith that people had been straying from. In other words I rebuff and reject and teach that deviation from the Apostolic faith of Jesus Christ, in the Catholic Church, is incorrect and incomplete, that the Qur’an is correct for the people to whom it was given, and that Reformation faiths are incomplete and incorrect. Needless to say I was also to witness against atheism, Communism and its ilk, and pagan so-called New Age beliefs. By witness against I mean both the reality of my existence (I’m here, I’m Catholic, and I know what I’m talking about, and I can prove it by answering any question about how to correctly interpret the Scriptures and God’s will) and through a healing ministry with people of like mind and spirit. I have been waiting over 50 years for those people to appear and not a single one has. While waiting I am obviously supposed to be alive and validating the goodness of life. I had been baffled, however, in my early years by the actions of many who were supposed to be friends or acquaintances, say nothing about actually being disciples that I awaited. At first I thought it was subconscious on their part. After all, as the Lord instructed, I had maintained total silence as to my “identity” and mission, since I was not to take action until I was an adult (over thirty years old) and I was with my true life partner. My hand was forced into marriage twice because I found that I was actually under physical threat of molestation and other harm, possibly costing my life before I could accomplish what the Lord willed. So I married, basically, “bodyguards.” One proved to be totally addicted and a threat to his own safety, say nothing of actually protecting me, so I divorced him very quickly. The second was a good man, but one who was choosing a potential wife from a long list of candidates (with attributes listed) and I simply allowed myself to move to the head of the list. It was my intention to heal him from that Chinese menu view of a partner, knowing that someday I would move on with my true partner, and knowing that he would have accumulated great grace from his service and affection toward me and that he too would gain greatly. But everything went terribly wrong for the past, most recent, twenty years. I observed and experienced incredibly painful anti-God and anti-me treatment that while I continued to think it must be subconscious (as my identity was still a subject on which I was silent and had an excellent cover) I had to start wondering at its 100 percent prevalence and the total lack of any true disciple with purity toward God’s teaching and will. I started wondering if the Pope and I were the only ones who “got it.” When Joan Osborne came out with a taunting song about God being “one of us, just a slob like one of us, just a stranger on a bus” in 1997 I really started to wonder what was going on. This is especially true because God verified to me in 1995 that the partner I sought was alive in the world. I had started to think that maybe it was God’s will that the plan for my life had changed and that I was going to be called home, which would have been fine with me. If people are too stupid and evil to be saved there are plenty of people already in heaven and lots of room in hell. But that was not my nature and I wanted to mother and love people back on the right track. I’m just saying that knowing who I am and the truth of God I have never feared death, though I’ve taken great care of my safety because otherwise I could not do my mission. I used to tell friends when I was in my teens that I could die at any time and that would be fine, and they were shocked (and didn’t believe me). I don’t mean it in the nihilistic way that sadly so many view death now, especially the young for whom the salt of life has lost (or never had) its flavor. The robbing of children of the trueness and goodness of life is one of the great spiritual genocides of the time, by the way, and many will go to hell for doing this to our children. But I digress. That song and other snarky messages in the media felt very intentional, and not subconscious. I could mention other examples, but I know people have gotten the point. These music, media and literary snarky messages got my attention, and probably not in a way that people intended. God, of course, was always aware of the fullness of the situation.

Then my “friends” and acquaintances started nudging me toward astrology. Ah ha. I went along with the cues and visited the web site that I was nudged toward. I started reading the “scopes” for my “signs” and found that some of them could actually have been written from my monthly diary of events. Hmm. How could astrology be “working” when I know for a fact that there is nothing to astrology and it does NOT work? I started working with the Holy Spirit in order to immerse myself in where I was being nudged and find out why astrology and “psychic readings” seemed to “work” and seemed to be “accurate.” This was when I uncovered the great secret alliance of pseudo-Christians who are heretics, witchcraft performers, stalkers, manipulators and spies. I found that my cover had been blown a long time ago, but blown in a totally inaccurate way. I learned that people knew I was a “someone,” but thought I was an old, unattractive, fat, stupid “reincarnated saint.” That would not be so bad if people had identified me as a “someone,” but incorrectly in the actual make up of my spirit. But to my horror I discovered that many thousands of power brokers actually believe in reincarnation (which does not exist at all, not EVER) but think that they are players out of sacred scriptures. They actually manipulate people’s lives to fulfill materialistic and what they think is spiritual karma. They have their own star chambers and have destroyed countless lives and led many souls to hell who would have otherwise been saved. I learned that they were advocating for my physical and emotional harm, thinking that they were carrying into the present “beefs” from the past. They have pillaged companies, countries, society, churches and families. They think they are “covered” because they think, as I explained above, that grace is like gold bricks and can be accumulated and never lost. So they actually think they accumulate grace in “charitable” activities, while with the other hand crushing anyone who is not their puppet (or is beneath their notice, you know, like the peasantry, or like “muggles,” or whatever Potter fans call those “without magic.”) How do I know this? They told me in their ham fisted way of trying to get me to “remember” my “past lives.” They experimented on me like a lab rat, both by putting me in situations where they could “evaluate my reaction” and physically, by abusing my body in surgery.

Another thing that helped me to figure out what was going on, which goes back to the point of this specific blog posting, is that I noticed some years ago that people who should have received grace from God for providing me with company and support where actually having some fierce things happen to them and their families. I first noticed this in the mid-1990’s. This is because, as I have repeatedly told you, God knows all as it is happening and in advance as humans form their free will intentions in their minds. So people I thought were helpful and nice to me were actually part of the manipulators and God knew. So God hardened his heart toward them even as I continued to be the dummy who was waiting for the cavalry to arrive so we can fix the world. These mean pigs thought they were accumulating grace, while all they have been doing is paving their way to a certain hell. Cancer, heart disease, and painful and mysterious illnesses such as ALS are a human condition and people need to invest in ethical ways to mitigate and heal them. So at first in the early 1990’s I thought the people I knew who suffered from these illnesses were part of the wave of genetic mutation, pollution, and unhealthy living that people have brought upon themselves, and for the most part that is true. But I noticed a few “outlier” incidents where my connection with the Holy Spirit told me that if people were as good to me as I had kidded myself they were, it was odd that certain “smites” took place. By smite I mean an unexpected illness or accident where it stretched credulity. In the late 1990’s as not a single person appeared to help me in my service to God and to the restoration of balanced reality based joy in life, and I saw a few of these events of illness and accident among those who were exposed to grace to God through me, it clicked. I realized that people were deliberately defying God and pretending to be spiritual and faithful. God is never fooled. He withholds chastisement as long as there is hope, but as I explained in a previous blog post, at some point he will harden his heart and allow someone to be smote through their own actions. This is especially true as thousands and millions of people have been harmed by the actions of these people I describe. They need to understand that defying God, harming me, and destroying the faith results in the loss of any grace they think they have. It’s not like you can take naked photographs of me and mock me, but then work in a soup kitchen over Christmas and it “cancels out” and you’ve “banked some grace due to charity.” You don’t fly a sick child on a corporate plane (thinking you get grace) and then make money off of the computers and networks that transmit images of infant rape. You vipers and fools! How could you have ever thought that God will permit this forever?

So I’ve got a financial report for you. Just as you have bankrupt and broken me, you have bankrupt and broken your own grace and salvation. You can be saying a hundred rosaries a day for all I care, but your actions toward me and the innocent of the world render your faithless mumbles meaningless. The people I have graced with my company have lost all their benefits thanks to your machinations. That was one of the first things that made me wonder. There was a man who I romantically cared about, even though we were both married. For a while I thought he might have been the partner I was waiting for, but I soon found out he was not, yet I still cared about him and his family. He had issues. He told me that he didn’t really know what love is, and that he had to snort cocaine before he could walk down the aisle to get married. I cared deeply about him and knew he would be a great father, despite the problems he felt, as he was an incredibly stable and responsible person. Years went by and I didn’t see him, and then we hooked up once in the mid-1990’s. He told me something that was one of the first examples of where I went, “Whoa, huh. Why did that happen to someone in his family? That did not seem to be the way I thought grace would flow.” Well, that was when the Holy Spirit informed me that all was not as it should be. So actions by some creeps derailed the grace that I had intended to share with the family. While all grace is from God it is up to people to open and share opportunities for grace, and I am the master of that. By master I mean I am totally approved and able to consciously discern how people can position themselves for grace from God. This is one reason that often I refuse to cooperate with the daily script writing and theater that the stalkers have planned for me; I do not want the participants to sin and so I hinder being a target wherever I can. I have suffered for years by doing this. People have wanted me to take jobs and do things so that they can demean and manipulate me in the name of “karma,” since they think they are karma vigilantes. But I know that each act and each spoken or written word that is in service of this karma vigilantism is a grave sin and blocks grace. So even as sinners harm me I have tried to shield them from their own actions by refusing to be puppeteered. Yet they will not stop, they have gone insane with evil. So of recent years I have stopped trying to even stop people from day to day sin and degradation. Rather than accumulating grace, you fools and vipers have lost even the ally who tried to keep you from performing more sin, by being more estranged from the one true God, from being damned. I have joined God in the hardening of the heart toward humans. So go make your donations toward wiping out malaria, and mouth words that you don’t mean to Jesus Christ. You’ll find out, and it may well be when it is too late. I think if you check your lists you’ll find out that it’s far too late for many of your ilk, as they roast in hell.

For me, I never dreamed that I would have to speak the words I’ve spoken the past several years, have hardened the heart as I’ve had to, and have given up on the vast majority of human beings. I have had to surrender to God and send home the spirit that I hoped to bring to humans. As wicked as people are I never dreamed that I’d be reading the newspaper each day about how parents film the spreading of their infant babies’ legs and thrusting cocks into their holes until they die, and marketing the film on the Internet billionaires’ sites. The things that I have seen, that I have heard, and that I have been subjected to are unbelievable, and as far from God’s will as black is from white. Even having to have the words of this generation of “humans” in my mind, on my lips, and typed on this keyboard is a horror. Like Ezekiel I feel I need, although I am assured that I do not, a black ember from the throne of heaven to purify my lips because of the scum I have been living among, before I return home. I didn’t need it in 1995, when I was called home but returned, but the depravity that has filled this earth in the meantime is a disgusting burden. I draw my comfort from knowing that when I am called home I won’t see any of you vipers, whether you were an architect or a bit player. And you wonder why St. John saw Jesus returning in the Second Coming in wrath. One thing you can count on like the bank; I won’t be holding his arm back with pleas for intercession and mercy. God willing.

Bad Stalker! Bad, bad stalker...

It's important that people realize that even non-violent stalking is a mortal sin. Yes, you read right, not a venial sin, but a mortal sin. The reason that it is a mortal sin is that it violates one of the Ten Commandments. The commandment is number ten, "Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's goods." Let me start by defining stalking. It is the monitoring, and influencing, of a person's activities without their knowledge and permission. This is not the friendly nosy neighbor who you know by name, and who keeps an eye on the neighborhood, if that's all he or she does. If however that nosy neighbor knows about you from going through your things, by being part of a group of people who study your every move, or attempts to manipulate your activities, that is stalking and a violation of the Tenth Commandment. The reason is that you are coveting (wishing to have for yourself) something that you are not entitled to (inside knowledge and control.) Think of this as "gossiping on crack." It's much worse than gossip because a gossip does not know but just guesses, while a stalker takes from the person private information for their own purposes. There is no such thing as innocent stalking. There is innocent gossip, and there is innocent puppy love, and there is innocent crushes, and there is innocent celebrity fan activity. But stalking of anyone, celebrity or civilians, with the intent to spy and possess something you are not entitled to is a very serious mortal sin.

Here are some examples. There is a difference between striking up a friendship with someone you meet, or fixing someone up on a blind date and pretending not to know someone and manipulate a meeting and a relationship. This, incidentally, brings into consideration breaking the Eight Commandment, "Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor." That is because stalkers are often in possession of and distribute false information, without their even realizing it. When one is not in an honest relationship, it is easy to misinterpret activities that you have spied upon. That is bearing false witness, first by believing it, and then by spreading that to others. Stalking ruins people's lives. It destroys love and trust. It destroys families. It destroys relationships. It destroys careers. It destroys peace of mind. And ultimately, it destroys the stalker, because by not recognizing that they are committing a moral sin, regardless of whatever else they do in their lives, they do not stop the activity and seek both Church and personal reconciliation with the person who has been hurt.

Think about the life of Jesus Christ. When people approached him for healing, even the lady who touched his hem secretly for cure from her bleeding, they were not stalking him. This is because he had made himself a public figure, and all that people knew about him was in the open. However, who did stalk him? Those who eventually crucified him. They spied on him and believed that they had knowledge of what he "really" was doing and what he "really" meant. Do you think God gave such people an "atta boy" in their personal judgment? The answer is "no" in case you are puzzled!

Let me talk again about the parable I mentioned above. It is one of the most beautiful passages in the bible. Look at Matthew 9: 20-22:

Now a woman who for twelve years had been suffering from hemorrhage, came up behind him and touched the tassel of his cloak, saying to herself, "If I touch but his cloak I shall be saved." But Jesus, turning and seeing her, said, "Take courage, daughter; thy faith has saved thee." And the woman was restored to health from that moment.

Luke 8:45 describes more of what happened, in greater detail: And Jesus said "Who touched me?" And all were denying it. Peter and those who were with him said, "Master, the crowds throng and press upon thee, and does thou say, "Who touched me?" But Jesus said, "Someone touched me; for I perceived that power has gone forth from me." But the woman, seeing that she had not escaped notice, came up trembling, and falling down at his feet, declared in the presence of all the people why she touched him and how she had been healed instantly.

I have always loved this woman. She had suffered for so many years and turned to Jesus in the most humble yet strong in faith manner. Can you imagine what a bleeding for twelve years must have been like in those times? I can. And I've heard priests give wonderful homilies about this particular miraculous healing. She was clearly not stalking Jesus. He was in the part of his life where he had proclaimed his public presence and ministry, and she, like many, believed and came to him. And when Jesus felt her touch, and the apostles and others heard him inquire, she came forward and admitted to the touch. There were three great gifts here, if you think about it. One was the healing itself. One was her total and pure faith (she was not testing him, she believed.) And the third gift was the witnessing, both by the crowds then, and to everyone today, through these events being preserved in the Gospels.

Now, here is how a miracle could have gone "all wrong through stalking." Suppose that people had gone through the garbage of the family of Jesus (not that much was thrown away in those days, but let's go along with my making a contemporary example.) What if they noticed that the Jesus family always threw away the hems of their clothes after performing sewing alterations. Is there a chance that people would have concluded, if they were stalking and not asking, that there is something wrong with hems? I mean, why not save the perfectly good material of the hems and use them as curtain tie backs? And no one asked because they thought, smugly, that they had some sort of secret knowledge of the Jesus family. If this poor woman had been a stalker or had heard of this, she might never have thought to touch the hem of his garment and be cured. Worse, people would have spread the heresy that there was any part of Jesus that was not complete and pure, by reason that they think there is some like or dislike, or power in inanimate objects that the Jesus family responds to. If they had confessed and asked the Jesus family, we have gone through your garbage and notice that you throw away your hems after shortening, why is that? Imagine what they might have heard.

o We know there is a poor old man down the street who is destitute and ashamed to beg, so we put cloth out in our garbage so that he may take it in peace and weave it into a covering.

o We do not want to have long stringy things around the young children in the family, especially the cousins' children who are toddlers and get into everything, as we fear they may choke on it.

o The color of the hem cuttings do not match the curtains, and I want only the nicest, even in our poor circumstances, for my mother and father.

This is why stalking is a mortal sin. It takes knowledge that one is not entitled to and one is most likely to abuse (because if one is not abusing it, why is one doing it in secret?) And the misunderstandings and consequences are hurtful and terrible. There is no such thing as innocent stalking, and there is nothing that is not known to God, and will be answered for. Please pray for honesty, discernment, self control, and wisdom, and do not stalk.